hmmmm.... went to darling's hse jus now.... wow... the moment i saw her notes... tears started to drop.... like tap water keep running..... hai....

last wk... seriously ill... kena virus again... had fever for 3 to 4 days ba.... hai....

jus now... had a tok with darling n BB too...

is it everyone will change whenever they r in a new env??? no matter the change is gd or bad... they jus change....

wat is happy??? wat is laugh??? wat is the real me??? to say the truth... i aleradyy forgotten... is like it has been lost for half a yr..... now.... the life is dull... sian.... tired.... meaningless... a bit of goal also dun hav... no days for me to look forward too...

tan bin... chen bin... almost lost le ba.... now... wat i heard always is wendy this wendy tt..... no more care n concern.... no more real laugh.... no more everything le ba...... within half a yr... i lost myself.... everyday hav to smile to go to work.... as wat ppl say... hav to wear mask.... maybe wear till i dun even noe wat is the real me le ba... wat is the real me??? wat am i exactly???

right now.... i am scared of everything.. really everything... i really dun hav the courage to face my future.... no matter is sch or watsoever.... i'm sacred to face it!!! i'm scared of being alone!!!!

in the past... the topic tt all of us tok r everything..... now... the topics tt we tok r still everything... but no matter wat... still will related to money$$$$......

dunno la......

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wow.... new version le eh..... hav chinese words le ehh....

hmmm.... now v sian leh..... at piggy's hse now... but tt two guys ar......tok tok tok... the topics tt they tok.... are those tt i dun understand.....

idiot.... hai.... sian..... now korkor asked me out... 11.15pm then go out..... dunno can a not....

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