Finally online... hai... really dun unerstand leh... as if he dun hav room like tt... if he wan his rm to be messy, go ahead!! y bother to make the whole hse full of his things leh??? even toilets also hav his comics ehh!!!! stupid guys!! only noe how to make things messy but dunno how to keep!!! really stuipid idiot ehh!!! wat??? u think u v big ar?? u think u r the king or prince?? u think we gals r ur maid ar??? always keep things for u... then there u r anyhow do those hsework... keep saying dunno how to do.. dunno this dunno tt... but nv really conc on wat u r doing... jus anyhow do n say u done liao!! then ur face kept looking at ur com!!! hey mister!! we paid the electricity bill.. we paid the internet... we paid everything... but u r alone enjoying without helping!! u really dunno how to zhi dong leh!!! idiot... really pig head... da zhu tuo!!!!!! qi shi wo le!!!

anyway... dun wan to waste time on him...

sunday... is a day tt i hav been looking forward to since the start of the wk ba... hehe... finally a day to go out n relax... after helping mummy doing those hsework… bath then go out liao… met BB at the station then took taxi to east coast… the weather was not bad la.. though the sky was like dark dark but it nv really rained lor… so we get to sit at the beach n chit chat… hehe… it was quite windy ehh… wow… the feeling was nice!!! Hehe… if the weather was bad ar.. I was intending to go tampines leh.. cos jess said tt tampines mall not bad n the century jus renovated, there r many pretty shooes n bags!! Hehe.. anyway… after staying there for bout 2-3hrs ba.. but cos we meeting our clicks at 7pm so we went to bedok… to take train to suntec.. but cos the time was still too early… we went to changi airport instead… Terminal 2 really changed but the renovation like v long ehh… however cos we stayed too long there liao… late for the meeting.. so we took taxi again to city hall…

reached there le.. found sc n Sharon… wow… v v long nv meet them le ehh… sc is working in tuas le… then we tok tok tok.. waiting for Dm n piggy… finally everyone reached le.. then we went suntec n find DJ for dinner… Dinner was nice… not v ex too ba… I think la.. then as usual la… the whole click of us chit chatting lor… hehe… then after dinner, started to plan a surprise bday for mel.. cos her bday was on sun… called serena to start the plan… to bring mel to esplanda… then our gp here went to buy cake n gav it to her at the esplanda… n ya… she was surprised ehh!!! Hehe… but thanks to the cake ar… we all walked till v chuan… n to find the lighter out… we borrowed from many ppl ehh!!! From one uncle to another uncle.. haha… then took photos lor… hehe… the place was nice la… but I think too many ppl liao… quite crowded… stayed there till bout 10++… then bk n taxi home…

ya… Sunday was a taxi’s day for me n BB!! Haha… he said tt every junction tt we took taxi was no choice de… cos if we nv take taxi, either we will be v late or we cannot go to the place tt we wan… hehe… erm.. quite logical la… but I also quite xin tong la… however the day was fun!!! Really enjoyed myself… hehe….

Monday… need to do OT till 10pm… erm.. was ok la.. but last min gav us so many products tt we cannot finished so hav to leave till the next day to do them… hai… as usual la.. daddy came n fetched me… but he ar… v bad ehh… asked me to drive back… then I turned wrong expressway… hai… I could reached home at 10.30 de… but cos I had a wrong turned.. 10.40 then I reached… hai… lucky my speed was not tt slow.. if not ar… dunno 11 I could reached home a not… haha….

Today… was ok la… but a bit blur la.. cos too many at a time came up le… so blur until I dun even noe wat I am doing… hai.. then ah bu kept suanning me… he ar… ok la… he really can vomit le… haha… cos of my silliness n blur ba… sorry ar… not purposely de ehh!! I really not purposely de!! But today was fun as I learnt how to fix products le!!! Hehe… first time I fix myself ehh!!! Haha.. first time I did my calibration standards… but tt standards v zun ar!!! Haha… but thanks to those standards ar… early in the morning make me so chuan… can u imagine??? Jus prepared 4 standards can make me perspired?? Aiyo… but today was ok la.. hehe… k la… blog when my com was ok le ba… today blog v long hor?? Haha…

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hmmm..... finally friday le.... i waited for friday till my neck v v v long liao... this wk... erm... not bad at work... my company jus came a nyp student.... monday she came... n so qiao.. yiling was on leave so i hav to teach her.. can u imgaine?? a new staff teaching a new gal?? aiyo... anyway it was much better when she was back... haha... i think ar,... tt new gal must be thinking i'm having attitude pro ehh... erm... jus my feeling lor... i really feel tt she felt tt way lor... hai...

this wk work was fine la.. nth much also... jus tt this wk.. dunno y i'm feeling so lazy... v v lazy ehh... totally no mood lor... all i wish to do is slp... ya... n the moment i reach home is SLEEP!! haha... S L E E P is my fav thing to do this wk!! hehe....

today... dunno is unlucky or wat ehh... the moment the bus reached the company, the rain started to pour!!! then lazy to take out umbrella so jus ran lor.. then ah bu say me.. haha... i can see tt he wanted to shield me but the new gal behind so he couldn't... but nvm la... then early in the morning whike i was wiping the vis tube.. it jus slipped off my hand n broke ehh!!! n is really fen shen sui gu!!! haha... susan said tt even when they used to broke ar... also nv broke until so jialat ehh!!! then they suan me lor... then nvm... while washing the vis tube ar... dunno y.. the washing tube broke also ehh... aslo by me ehh!!! qi shi wo le!!! aiyo.... end up they said tt i v chu ru... hai.... ah bu kept suanning me... idiot uncle... haha...

then today we had our meeting... first time i had meeting ehh... but 2 hrs.. i listened till i really wan to slp le ehh.... aiyo.... n plus i'm newcomer... then he kept toking to me... aiyo... how i wish i can get out of the place n fo my testings instead ehh!!! hehe.... already feel like slping le.. n he making it worst!!! hai....

oh.... today is friday... tml is sat... the following day is sun... haha... a day i hav been looking forward to v long liao... hope i can hav fun ba... hehe.... meeting my poly friends tt day... n meeting BB too... hehe.... k la... blog next time ba....

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HapPy BiRtHdAy ShArOn!!!

hmmm.... i hav not been blogging this wk... this whole wk.. i'm sick... haha... cough.. flu... sore throat.... this whole wk.. been coming home early la... my body really dun allow me to stay back any longer... haha... but work was peaceful for me this wk... n fun ba... kinda of click w 2 of the young colleagues.. yeeling n ah bu... so though i was sick, quite relieved tt the work peaceful de lor... but the work load was still stress la... jus msg sharon today... this wk, when i'm sick.. i kept thinking of her... cos in the past, in sch... whenever i'm sick... the next person tt kena sick is comfirm sharon mok!!! haha... i kept recalling tt ehh... n i kepy recalling the part in fyp where both of us r down with flu.. left sc to smell the frag... end up.. even sc was sick... haha.... hai... miss those days man!!! sharon... i think u must be relieved tt u r not beside me now ba?? if not u gg to get sick soon le hor??? haha....

ytd.. went out with BB... hehe... i v long nv go out le ehh!!! actually meeting darling n korkor de... they wan to hav dinner n sing together de... so though i was sick n plus i wan to meet him ar... so i nv go out with them... sorry ehh... but i promised... within june... i will go out with both of u de!!! hehe... anyway ytd was fun... i managed to buy wat i wan to buy... hehe... n he bought sth for me AGAIN!!! hai... not fun de... i noe u dun wan me to spend too much but sth i jus wan to spend my money... ya.. though not everytime for myself... but i will also spend things on myself de lor!! hehe.... but i still happy to hav tt thing la... hehe... oh.. guess wat??? ytd bishan has a wedding exhibition... then ar.. i think they no one to patron them ba.. then they anyhow find ppl n tok le leh... of all ppl.. they came to us... for 3 times somemore!!! pls lor... do i look like someone tt getting married??? idiot ehh!!! aiyo... find ppl also need to find correct ppl ba... tian ar!!! hai...

anyway.. today.... normal lor... though i dun wish to get out from the bed... these two days... whenever the clock rang, i kept forgetting tt i need to work... hai... today ar... dunno how to comment those production ppl ehh... in the morning, there r 4 ppl in the lab but they dun wan to send samples up... after lunch, n is directly after lunch where only left 3 ppl in the lab... they sent 9 new products up ehh!!! 9 ehh!!! stupid lor... 9 new samples hav not plus those filling samples n flushing oil ehh... wow... for the whole of 2 hrs... i hav not really sat down ehh.. first time i saw the forming tube not enough... all the stopwatches been used up... first time i saw all the products need forming n demulsibility... first time saw the density meter jam up with colour tubes.... haha... ok la.. time really passed easily ehh... v fast 3pm liao.. then after their tea break... again... but not tt many samples le ba... but today then i really pei fu tt production supervisor... he really not bad ehh... skip his lunch break jus to work... hai... but i really dun mind everyday like tt la... hehe... is better than i slack inside the lab n jus walked here n there... sit down also like not right like tt... hehe....

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jus now went to read ppl's blog as usual... the only diff is.. the moment i read dear's blog.. tears began to come out le... ya... i hav exactly the same feeling as her... i missed sch... i missed those lectures.. i missed those fun tt i had in sch... i missed those expt... i missed those toking tt i had with those lecturers n friends... though stress.. though not v close w the whole of IC class... but i still missed them... i missed my tables with those notes lying ard.. waiting for me to study... i missed having my lunch n dinner there... but.. now... everything is gone...

ya.. working is nice... but i think is the money tt make ppl think tt is nice ba... i dunno... my working place is not bad... till now they r still nice to me... i noe maybe i'm giving myself too much stress... i noe maybe i'm thinking too much... i noe i hav to get myself out of it.. i noe i hav to get used to it sooner or ltr... i noe i hav to be more alert... i noe working n schooling is not the same... i noe i noe... i noe ppl hav to look ahead... i noe we hav to move on... i noe i hav to move on... but.... noe is one thing... whether i can accept is another thing... i noe i hav to quickly adjust to adapt the place.. adapt wat i am doing now... ya... i think time is the ans ba... i dunno... i v confused... v blur... v stress... more stress than my exam ba... at least exam u noe once u study... no pro.. got any qns, u can jus consult ur lecturers or friends... ya... tt's was in the past le... now i hav to noe n remember wat they said, wat they taught me... can ask... but as wat Dr Ng said before... asked also can only asked a few mroe times ba... if not ppl will think tt u r incapable... hai... suan le... i suppose let time heal me ba... :(

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now...i'm

v luan....

v stress....

v blur...

really feeling like crying...

i dunno wat i am thinking...

feeling sick now....

god... can u pls help me??

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hmmm.... jus came back from seletar... last 2 wk... my mood was really v terrible... aiyo... totally no mood!!! always feel like crying... but jus cannot cry out...

these 2 days... hai hao ba... but then... i kept doing wrong things... hai... i miss sch ehh... now i finally understand y ppl say scholling is better... in sch.. yes u hav stress... but the stress is jus purely ur sch work... ur studies... jus a matter of ur expectation.. at work... is totally diff lor... dunno leh... i'm scared!! i really scared!! i scared of doing wrongs things... n the worst thing is the more i scare, the more wrong thigns i'm doing... hai... i scared i pass wrong products.. i scared i forget to write those density.. i scared i kena scolding... i scared i might pissed off my colleagues... hai.... i missed sch... i really missed sch... jus now took double dec bus.. tt familiar smell.... hai...made me think of my sch... i miss my sch... i really miss my sch.... hai... jus now in the bus, i kept flashing back those scenes tt happened in sch... those normal routine tt i would always do in sch...

honestly ar... i v stress eh... v v stress eh... so stress tt my legs v luan ehh... i really feeling sick lor... my heart ar... dunno leh... hai... tian ar.. can u pls bless me from doing wrong things?? i already trying my best to do everything le ehh!!! at least dun let me measure wrongly or forget to write la... pls??? allopw my eyes to open big big to see those careless mistakes!!!! hai... working is really v v different from schooling... different from ITP... ya... everyone also noe they r diff... but tt kind of diff must hav own experience then u will realise it lor...

actually i think i still need to thank god for having me to hav 2 not bad colleagues ehh.... they taught me... they reminded me... though i dunno is hao xin or wat la... maybe deep inside their heart they r cursing me or sth... but... i dunno la.... hai... stress ar......................................................................

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ytd... was a happy day for me... really... i was happy the whole day except the v late nite...

ytd... susan was not here... then as usual la.. the company was quite slack.. i really nth to do... end up, i hav to ask everyone is there anything i can help out a not?? aiyo... but the weighing machine really giv me problem leh!! hai... but ytd was fun at the company.. we tok, laughed... many things la... kinda of enjoying in the company le... though i still hav the feeling of scared!! n of cos "mao dun"

after work, went to met BB n darling... i owned darling sakea shushi for more than a yr le ba?? hehe... sorry.. anyway... we tok lor.. laughed n played together... hehe... the dinner was fun la...

but when i came back... BB n i tok throu the phone... dunno leh... suddenly i feel... now when i think back, i feel tt everything was like.... acting... to me, the three of us r happy ytd... but i was wrong... one of us r acting... tt made me feel so..... bad... i sld hav noticed it... i sld hav been more sensitive... i sld hav been more caring... nono... i sld hav not been so caring.. or rather nagging... i sld hav been more........understanding?? ya.. i sld hav been more understanding... care sld care but care at the wrong things ba... i sld not hav not only care for the outer feelings but also the inner feelings.. afterall, inner feelings is the part tt is harder to heal ba... i sld hav been more senitive lor...

sorry... really sorry... is my fault tt i nv taken notice of... u hav the right to be unhappy... everyone has the rights to be happy or unhappy... even animals hav emotions.. so humans hav even more... u r human lor.. u r not god... u can be sad n unhappy... u can also hav mood swing... but pls... can u pls tell me y u unhappy?? at least tell me who is the cause of it la... if me, then i can go n think about it ma... but darling hav told me some le la... ya.. n i really feeling v v guilty bout it le.. really sorry lor.. sorry for everything i did to make u unhappy... sorry for been so insentive... u r v nice already... really... maybe i'm the one tt is not used to it ba..

darling... thank you for ur advice n ur "scolding" tt made me realised tt i am wrong.. thanks for reminding me the fact tt i hav changed.. u nv told me tt... but i discovered tt when u told me sth... i hav changed to be so insentive.. tt made someone so sad n hurt... is hurt.. if someone did tt to me, i'll feel hurt lor...

piggy... thank you for being there... thank you for listening to me... thanks for ur encouragement...

BB.... sorry for not being there... sorry for.... everything... i did not not grow up afterall....

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hmm... today... not a bad day for me... hehe... early in the morning, saw weijian.. haha... he spotted me first de... cos i was hearing my FM..then nv heard him calling me.. but i did heard voices la.. like someone shouting.. so i turned my head.. hehe.. pai seh la... really nv see u ma...

korkor is back!!! finally!!! haha... he called me when he was int he mrt... he was back ytd... wonder isit fun a not?? haha... hmm... he gg to acc me till july.. darling too... korkor is cos of army.. darling gg to nus le... hai... i think by mid july, no one acc me after work le ba... sad man!!! hai... today in company... not bad la.. not as slack as ytd... today dunno y.. the production line suddenly so hardworking... haha... tml... hope is the same ba.. i rather my legs luan than asking me to slack ard... hehe...

tml gg out with darling n BB... uncle tan not coming le.. cos he has courses to attend... hai... but i really wish to see him ehh!! hehe... he's gg in on the 10th june... edwin tan... when u free????

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hmmm... these few days kept having mood swing... shit man!! really dun like tt feeling.. but dunno who to get out of this feeling... n once i get this feeling, it'll last for a few days de... hai...

but thanks dear dear... hehe... BB... hard on u le ba... hehe... but i still happy tt u called me today w/o me asking u to... hehe... tt call really v gd le... at least let me vent out all those..."qi" ba... hehe... lao tian is still quite gd to me ba... after toking to BB, piggy msg me le... today mr ho bring those gg into the army friends out for dinner... got ah lu, xw n many ppl ba... they went to merchant court for dinner... ok la... all these ppl... thanks for trying to make my day better... ya... i jus need ppl to tok ba... or rather to coax me ba... hehe...

3 days le.. i hav been slacking in the company for 3 days le... pls.. can u hav sth for me to do?? hai.. today i screamed again ehh!!! cos.... tt production ppl went to pull teh basket down when i trying to get the sample out of the basket... n hai wo nearly fallen down from the window... lucky.. lucky the window is small enough to prevent myself from falling.. i quickly bring myself backward... aiyo... scary ehh!! can u imgine from 3rd floor to 1st?? ok.. dun imagine.. v scary... anyway... tml is thursday... then fri... uncle tan not free ehh!! hai.. dunno when can see him... wan to see him lor... before he went into the army... fri ah lu gg in le.. 3rd june... hai... will miss his jokes ehh!! hehe...

k la... blog tml ba... i wan to change my midi... hehe...

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