haha..... i finally waited for everyone to be back... dear dear is back.... ch is back... clara is back!! BB also back... piggy is back too!!! hehe.... all of them finally back le!!! so happy.... haha... i finally not alone le ba... haha... maybe except for BB ba... ok.. kinda of expected la... eho ask him to stay so far!!! so even he is back, also like tt... no diff for me lor... hai... but ok la... we can de!!! hehe.... but i still happy cos..... i finally see him jus now!!! haha... n i asked him to go n guess the song tt i am listening these few days... n he can guess correctly ehh!!! within like.... 1 hr??? i was shocked!! plus happy la... hehe...

jus now read ch's blog.... wow.... their chalet ar... damn fun man!!! so fun until i wished i was there too!!! hai... compared with mine ar... suan le... ok.. maybe tt day, my day is better than the rest cos of the surprise.. but overall, theirs is really fun lor!!!! nvm... next time... my chalet!!! i wan my chalet to be like them de!!! hehe... hope so ba!! but really envy ehh!!!

today as usual... went to help out... but want o say sorry to weijian... pai seh ehh... called me twice to come out but twice i also not free... sorry ar!!! as usual la... i was blur out!! lucky those aunties nv scold me... if not ar.. hai... i tink ar... those aunties also blur out cos of me... haha... so pai seh!!!

hmm... suddenly i miss many ppl ehh!!! how??? hai.... i miss ALL my friends!!!! how i wish i can combine them altogether!!!! i miss my schooling time with u all ehh.... hai.... i miss lian lian, gwen, mei fang, kah yong, korkor, kk, jiejie, yh, dear dear, ch, clara, wenyun, sc, sharon, hz, clau, piggy, BB, ah lu, DJ, tee guan, serena.... ya... everyone!!! everyone tt i hav spent with during these 7 or 8 yrs!!!! hai...

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tue nite.... not v happy... thanks to piggy n tt idiot alfred!!! piggy ok la.. understandable... but he nv really did alot to make me sad... cos after tt, he was alrite liao.. n we DID tok quite ok lor... but tt idiot alfred ar... like to add oil add sugar de leh!!! wao kao!!! really feel like scolding him n asked him to shut up!!! lucky he's gg army soon n i'm not gg to see him again!!!! but having him to protect the country... erm.. abit unlucky lor!!! hai... n guess wat???? he borrowed money from them again at genting.... cannot tahan him ehh!!! aiyo....

hmmm... ytd is albert's bday.... but again... he spoilt the day himself... hai... suan le... anyway... went to NYP to acc kahyong n korkor to play tennis... i nv played la.. jus watched them played... then we tok lor... the previous nite tok to korkor for bout 1hr WITH MY HP!! hai... heart pain ehh!!! hehe... then after tt, acc darling to see doc... she ar.... coughed until cannot tok liao still refused to see doc... after tt, she came to my hse n we tok... erm... sincerely tok ba... haha... after tt, i drove her home... then went to helped out in er yi's shop liao... quite tired lor... but then again... tok to korkor to late nite again... haha... asked him to do sth quite daring ba... but... hai...

today... not really v happy cos the cd tt BB gave me... spoilt!!!! the side where we can write words on it, peel out!!! idiot ehh!!! i only listened once ytd ehh!!! not listen ar.... is see only ar... hai...

then went to darling's hse.... erm... we had a LONG tok.... really long... i finally say out wat is keeping inside me for years... sth tt i hav been afraiding of for years... darling... thanks ehh... i really hope wat u said is right n true.... i shall forget n will not bring it up again again for the rest of my life or to anyone le.... really... u shall be the last person tt noe le... i think i will bury it deep deep in le ba...

after tt, went to er yi's shop liao... wow.. today ar... super blur!!! blur until the aunties kept laughing.. then ok la.. they helped me lor... aiyo... i really dun like ppl tok to me when i'm counting money ehh!!! make me worse only!!! aiyo...

hope tml i will go out ba... hai...

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hmmm.... today woke up at 6am!!! wow... i tink ever since i end my exam, this is the first time i woke up so early ehh!!! haha... anyway... went out to jurong pier rd.. hope everything is a success!!! hai....

after tt, met bb n went to sentosa..... hehe... i finally get to sit singapore cable car!! wow... is really damn ex lor!!! really ehh!! i was shocked by the price!!!! ok.. this shall be the first n maybe last ba.. till i think when we r v "rich" ba.... haha...

anyway, went to merlion, then to the "twin tower".... i loved the "twin tower" ehh!!! v windy n nice... really hav a nice feeling ehh!!! but cannot stayed long... cos we promised D tt we would go n acc him... but ok la.. we did stayed v long there... cos of the nice breeze n we dun perspired so much under the stupid hot sun!!! tt's y i was really v bit regretted promising him... haha...

anyway we did walked over la... ya... v hot!!! walked till i cannot tahan ehh!!! i jus sunburnt lor... n yes i'm v red now!! thanks to ANG DINGJUN AR!!! hehe... but ok la... went to hav a tok w him lor... if not he v lonely ehh!!! hehe.... ya the three of us like v long friends hav not seen each other like tt... kept toking non stop under the shade... but still v hot!!!! aiyo...

after tt, he went to fetch his "beloved", then we left him for the fort siloso... erm... hai hao la... not v keen in noeing ba... though we did read some thing la... n commented on it la... hehe... after tt, went to cinnemax(sld be this spelling ba...) erm... not v fun i must say lor... not really v interesting... then went to the sky tower... by then, is quite late le la... so the sky was quite dark le ba.. sunset scene lor... v nice also... hehe.... then the "train" keep turning n turning at great height... not bad la... oh... the monotrail hav been removed le ehh... so is quite troublesome lor... hai...

lastly, after the sky tower, we went to the mt faber by cable car... hmmm... tt place maybe too dark le ba... nth to see de... but maybe is a nice place to tok ba... no more liao... haha... by the time we returned to harbour front is already like... 9pm?? then problem came le... hai....

anyway.. overall i like the "twin tower" n the sky tower ba... haha... i jus loved great height places... maybe i'm short tt's y ba... hehe... but is really v ex.. so i suggest, went to take the package if u hav special occasion n wanted to do sth memeorable.. then go for it... if not... bus is the best ba... hehe...

k la... v long le... next time then blog ba...

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jus changed the skin... haha... nice??? hehe... ok la.. maybe cos used to it le ba.. then noe wat need to change wat need not.. so the changing time is no longer so long le ba... hehe... anyway... jus cont enjoying ba... hehe....

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wow... many things to say ehh....

first... to those who kena the virus from me... sorry!!!! erm... i think it can be cure by reformating ur com ba.... hai... feeling really v guilty de ehh.... so mnay friends hav to reformat their com cos of my carelessness... hai... sorry sorry sorry.....

next.... oh oh oh.... my darling ar... xin fu ne!!!! ytd ar.... called me n complaint bout him... so angry with him till cried ehh... but ar... come to at nite ar... come n sms me gd news liao!!! wow... bb was rite... "suddenly cry suddenly happy".... haha... i was really happy for her lor... after so many up n downs.... darling ar... i told u before liao... sooner or ltr u will get ur xin fu de... see?? i was rite, rite??? hehe.... but ar... in future, if u hav any pro, u also can cont to find me de k??? this also applied to my dear dear n all my friends hor!!! hehe... wow.. last nite, after listening to her, so high.. hey.. not my fault to wake u up hor... who ask u make me so high??? hehe....

tml.... i'm looking forwards to tml... hope will be fun... ya will be fun de la... not fun i'll sure bashed bb up... hehe.... piggy n DJ they all gg sentosa leh... really hope they will change to tue... hai...they gg genting on wed morning le... but nvm la.. tt 3 days.. i sure can hav my own programme de... hehe....

my blog got pro ehh... i cannot see... anyway... k la... maybe is time to change my skin le ba... hehe...

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hmmm...... i find tt the more i wan to keep low... the more i think is IMPOSSIBLE!!!! aiyo.... wow.. like slowly slowly w/o me telling ar... so many ppl noe liao... "thanks ar!!!" haha...

some msg to my friends:

ya... jus told dear dear bout it... erm... dear ar... dun scold clara la... she's innocent de!!! i rather i said myself to u lor!!! hehe.... u r my dear dear ehh!!! how can i let someone tell u rite??? u will sure kill me!!! rite?? hehe.... n anyway... pls remember our date!!!! i miss u ehh!!! hai...

bb.... i noe u did alot la... after reading the friendster thingy... anyway lucky is friendster n not blog... haha.. if not u sure wan dan!!! hehe... k la... i really really really hope wat u say come true lor... hehe.....

clara n wenyun n xx:

jus get to noe from dear dear tt u 3 gg overseas to study liao... n confirm de liao.... remember me k??? n pls tell me the date tt u all r leaving.... i will miss u all de leh.. though not in the same class... but i always feel so happy when i can get to see u all ehh...

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haha...... anyone miss me??? hehe....

ya.... finally I AM GRADUATED!!! happy neh..... hehe.... ok... today blog i think will be v long la..

friday... after the last paper... celebrated jean's bday... then i had a small chat w the food ppl... wow... miss them ehh!!! esp my dear dear!! 3 wk nv saw her ehh! but luckily... last day of sch.. i managed to see to ppl tt i will miss them most... haha... after tt, went to marina to eat steamboat w bb, piggy, afred, dm, dj n zy... erm... not a v gd one i must say... but during the arcade is fun!! esp the soccer thingy... the 7 of us really had great time...but tt day reached hm quite early la... n w bad mood... really not a gd mood lor... but thanks to auntie chew for tt call... hehe...

then sat n sun... clean hse... nv really did much... but i slept alot... finally man!! slept till 10+ ehh... haha....

came mon... had lunch w ada n at the same time went back to our company... not we miss the company la... is cos we miss our bian pian!! oh... i also noe bout the guys' army thingy...

weijian, kah yong, ch - 8 july...
korkor - 12 july
ah lu - 3 jun
alfred - 3 may
piggy - step

as far as i noe, i tink piggy is the last one to go in.. erm.. dunno sld be happy for him or sad... haha... anyway... after coming back from the company, i went to my chalet le... my FIRST overnight chalet... erm... ya.... v happening... within 1 nite, happened many things...

overall is fun la... n i think first time i nv slp wor... v tiring... my eyes swollen the next day.... had a great n long tok with my clicks... n "confess" many things... drank alot n ate alot of fishballs... mr ho there had a uni tok... haha... oh... we also hav "lecturers" tok... we gossip bout our lecturers... hehe... wow.. some really cannot make it ehh... hehe... oh ya... we getting out results on 5 may... n our graduation day is on 27 july... hmm.... looking forward ba... anyway, is really a long nite... n a "movie marthon" nite... watched many movies ehh.... we watched "shutter" (wrong spelling de...)... tt movie tt i watched w weijian n ada de... ya though i watched before... but is scary.... really scary.... basically i was hiding behind piggy... haha... n i frighten my friends too.... haha... sorry ar... not purposely... hehe.... then our clicks went out to hav a tok again.... till about 5+... everyone were back in chalet... but who noes?? aircon spoilt... hai... lucky hav a bit of wind... then everyone was watching movie, "the incredible" but some were slping la... couldnt really slp cos the tv was too loud!!!! really inconsiderate lor... but anyway hai...

so the next day(tue).... a beautiful morning.... first time i feel this way ba.... hehe... was smiling all the way.... then went out for a bench walk... after tt went to cycle liao... wow... tt cycle made me burnt!!! really burnt like chacoal!! hai... till now still pain ehh.... at first we wanted to cycle to changi village de... halfway throu... some gals dun wan... cos due to the heavy trucks, is too dangerous le... so we asked mang keong to drove piggy n DJ to take over some gals... then we changed our plan... we cycled to east coast... then i think cos jus woke up from the slp, n had a vigorous excerises, he cycled too fast liao.. then had a slight heatstroke... wow... his face n lip really turned white!!! really scary ehh!!! aiyo.... but after a rest he's better le la... then after tt, we forbidded him to cycle so fast... but the returned journey is fun... thanks to DJ n his singing ar... he sang "xiao wei" n "ming ming heng ai ni" to piggy... wow.. really made me n sc laughed till siao!!! haha.... came back le, tok a while, bathed then i went to bed liao... for 45 min only!!! pathetic a not?? maybe to some, u all cannot even slp ba... but anyway, ok la... hehe... overall is fun la... but a bit sian cos is not really well organised....

esp thanks to my friends for tt "surprise"........

piggy:
thank you for ur "help" ar.... w/o u helping, i think it cannot be a sucess ba..... hehe....

su cheng:
thank you for ur "recommendation".... erm... really touched ehh... hehe.....

all IC students:
thank you for ur "concern" ar....

today(wed)... went for interview... erm.... dun ask me how... i dunno... i only noe tt place v far.... not jurong island but beside jurong island... hai... 2 hr journey from my hse.... haha... see how ba... k la... blog tml ba...

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hmmm..... jus finished leong's part.... ltr gg to revise colin's part le!!

YES!!! finally last paper!!! is like every yr, this is the day tt i hav looking forwards to!! this yr is also the same... but then... this yr... is a bit special... maybe is the same as when i'm taking the last paper which is AMaths during my O level ba... ya.... today not only is my last paper... is also my last day is Singapore Polytechine!!! sld i say finally last day le???

hai... dunno leh... mix feelings ba... kinda of happy but also kind of bu she de!!

thinking back my 3 yrs of poly life.... i think every stage to me is a memory ba... every stage is different lor... i faced diff situation in every sem... let to noe more of my classmates in diff sem... of cos it also means tt my circles of friends is increasing every sem.... but at the same time, i also get to noe my clicks better... ok la... i'm still tanbin ba... wat i really bu she de is still my friends lor.... unlike in sec sch, most of us has only 2 routes, either to JC or poly.... now... we hav more... working, uni, overseas... hai.... dunno la....

many of my "First Time" also occurring during my poly life...

my first bbq with friends
my first outing with friends at sentosa
my first botanic trip with friends
my first chalat at east coast
my first D&D
my first n maybe last farewell party ba....

to most of us, maybe is used to it liao... but to me they r really the first time ehh!!! the above one r all with class... there are more things tt we did within our clicks... like gg to kbox..... a lot ba... maybe now then i realised wat is so called the "fun" ba.... haha... sound a bit pathetic hor??

but really need to thank my poly friends for making my poly life so interesting n fun ba...

k la... tml then i cont ba.... gg to study colin part le....

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i dun understand them....

friends:
y must they be so rush into it leh?? how come they cannot wait till after exam then settle this thing leh??? as if tt place will run away like tt... pls lor... even tt agency dun hav, u still hav others de rite??? y cant u wait till everyone comfirm liao.. then go n bk leh?? u really can leave ppl out de ar?? then wat's the pt??? suan le... maybe jus no fate ba....


i dun understand how come they dun let me go??? keep saying i small i small.... pls lor... i'm 20!!! not 2 yrs old.... is not as if i'm still in sec sch or wat ehh!! i even finished my poly le leh!! keep saying i'm not exposed to outside.... then now n then dun wan me to go outside....

ok i noe u r worried!! but this is the first n maybe the last time tt i can go out as a CLASS!! is really class lor!! n is nowhere except a place tt u all always go ehh!!! n i'm not with a few ppl lor... there are so mnay ppl ard wat's there to worry???? hai.....

hai..... y no one can understand wat i am trying to say leh???

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AHHHHHHH.... i v sleepy n tired now!!! finally finished my 2nd paper, PPC... wow... i really memorised till i can go crazy ehh!! really v scared tt i would go mind blank ehh!! then during the reading period, kept telling myself to relax... i dare not even think of the ans... afraid tt when i said out the ans, then by the time i wrote, i forget liao... hai....

then ar... at the start of the exam, there is mosquitos inside the rm ehh!! then they bit me.. idiot... both legs somemore!! hai wo dunno wan to scratch or do the paper.... hai... during the exam, i only noe i hav to write v fast to prevent myself from forgettting the ans... hai....

ytd then i noe tt in singapore, there is only 1 drug centre tt is our HSA... Health Science Authority... hai... till now i still hav to ask the person beside me for the ans... haha... hai... when i told DJ bout it, he was like... aiyo... u nv watched tv de ar?? yc n xw was like... there is only 1 centre lor... ok la... i really dunno ma... hehe...

after exam, we were toking bout the genting trip... looks like this genting trip could be a success ba.... haha... left me only ba... but i'm gg to ask after my exam.. ask now like not approiate ehh!! hehe...

i wan to go!!! i wan to go!!! haha....

YES!! i left 1 more paper to go... FRAGRANCE CHEMISTRY.... which is on fri... v long hor? but ok la.. till now i still hav not touched it ehh!! ada tml finishing her last paper... shuang man!! i still hav friday!! hai... k la... gtg le ba...

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hmmm.... since ytd.. i hav been sianing!!! how???? hai.... sian ar!!!!

read many blogs jus now... do woman always hav to do the waiting??? hai... wait n wait n wait... actually wat to we get??? wat do we actually wan??? does it worth all the waiting??

hai.... ya... men r beasts... but women jus loves small animals... y do we so stupid n silly ar?? always kena cheated by them... n once we are cheated, we are done for it!! hai..... suan le....

monday is ppc ehh!!! i still hav a few topics to finish writing the notes... but i jus no mood ehh!!! tired.... lazy is the word ba!! no enerygy or motivation lor.... hai...

jus now heard a bad news from my mummy bout my auntie.... i really hope hope pray v v hard t she will be alright!!! i really dun wish to lose anyone in the family.... after exam, right after exam, tt sat, i must go n see her liao... k la... now go bath.. ltr then must cont the studying le...

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today.... v sian.... really sian... sian till i no mood to study... hai....

y everyone ard like to go overseas ar??? does overseas' moon really rounder than here??? hai.....

i dunno how sld i feel now... i noe gg overseas is to study... by right, i sld be happy n agreed.... but then.... i dunno.... everytime u said it, i really dunno how sld i react.... hai... suan le la... if u really need to go, go ba... i really cannot find any reason to stop u lor... it is ur future...

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hmmm... today is my first paper of this last exam in poly..... AIA... not too bad la.. not as difficult as i tot... but still.... hav some wrongs la... but hai hao la... hope no more mistakes le ba.... really hope la... dun really dare to think so much...

but today v xiong ehh!! reach sch early... hope to get myself ready... but dunno y, the moment i'm out of the bus, my head pain liao... really idiot ehh!!! till now still pain! hai... maybe ltr after reading some ppc notes before i slp ba... tml dun wake up early lor... if not really cannot tahan ba... hehe....

today mood not too bad la... belongs to the happy mood ba.... hehe.... cos many ppl miss me ehh... hahaha.... jiejie msg me... jess msg me.... ada msg me... haha.... jiejie n jess asked me out... but sorry ar.... after my chalat ba... hehe....

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hmmm... tml is the start of my exam le... last exam in my 3 yrs poly life... right now... i think other than SP students, the rest of all my friends are either playing or slacking or working le ba.... gd hor??? enjoy life le la?? hai.. me still hav tough life ehh!!! idiot... y am i the last one??? hai.....

ytd... the weather v gd hor?? basically it rained the whole day!! but lucky it rained after i reached sch... ya... stayed in sch the whole day... till v late.... studyed whole day of AIA!!! n guess wat??? till now i still hav doubted!!! hai... dunno how la... as wat piggy said.. memorised everything lor!!! no choice.... everyone was so stressed ehh.. esp piggy.. aiyo... but i was v tired after the whole day of studying... as usual... slp right after i hav came back!!! hai...

but ytd.... had fun.... hehe....
someone ask me a silly qns...hehe....

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today's blog v v long.... hav many thoughts... happy plus sad de ba... v long nv really write down how i feel le ba?? hehe....

right now... i am v v tired... my eyes v tired.. nearly closing liao... these few days... kept running to n fro the funeral... kepy slping at 1am+++ .. then hav to wake up at 7++... but normally really woke up at 10am la... then hav to force myself to study.. though i hav millions thousand of bu shuang... but still hav to force myself to do it cos really cannot study at night lor... if study, then hav to switch on the lights then ah ma cannot slp liao... hai...

ytd is the worst la... during the day nv really studied... wrote notes for 1 chpt.. GC only... no more liao... then tok to korkor n yc... but v kind of korkor la... cos i like him hear him to play organ.. n he really played for me ehh... so sweet of him... hehe....

today is the last day of the thing... send my grandauntie off le... ya... after this funeral... i really hav many thoughts in me...

thoughts of filal daughters n sons... everyone has eyes to see... they hav eyes n hearts to feel lor... but life n death r really unpredicutable... er yi is right lor... now... everyone has a person in front of u to called, "Mummy, mama..." treasure the calling lor.... wat if... one day... choy ar... wat if one day they leave us n no one left for us to call??? no one is there to nag at us??? ya we may think tt they are nagging now... but i think we might treasure those nagging when they r lying inside... by tt time, maybe we might praying n begging them to wake up n keep nagging at us ba.... hai... most ppl always regret n treasure wat they hav lost...

ytd during the ritual... to say the truth ar... i hav been not many funerals... but at least i did attend some la... but ytd one... i dunno y... i v curious bout wat those monks r singing... wat r we doing??? heard many explaination... but one part i think is the saddest part is... sons n daughters hav to walk ten rounds... represent our mother was pregeant for 10mths... then telling us how great is our mother... wat r her worries?? wat r her desires from us.... before she left, we are like plants to her... everyday hav to take care of us... shaping us... now she is gone n we are left alone... then the monks would each giv the sons n daughters a branch of leaves n hongbaos.. represent we have to be on our own now... tt's the last blessing from our mother...

anyway... heard many stories ytd la... but then... this type of function... is like a gethering for all the aunties n uncles (all my mummy's cousins)... i remembered er yi said tt.. to hav this type of function whereby the whole family n is really mean whole family (those tt hav the surnames Eng, those ah gong's bro n sis, mummy's cousin's family) to gather together will only happen when there is 2 types of functions... one is xi shi another is bei shi... one is happy another is sad... happy is when one of their cousins getting married, or another is someone died... sound v pathetic ehh... but is true lor... but come to think of it, it also v hard for all of them to gather together... each ah gong's bro has so many children... each children has their own family by now... hai... but tt's y ah yi said tt must organise one outing... for the whole family to attend... for a gd change lor... sound like a gd idea hor?? but dunno will fulfil a not... hai...

oh... but cos of this "gathering", then i realised i hav another handsome jiujiu ehh!!! hehe... ok la.. i not only get to noe 1 handsome jiujiu... i realised i hav more jiujiu n ah yi than i actually noe... but before i saw tt handsome jiujiu, i tot my xiaojiu is the best liao... no one can compete with him ehh... but i was wrong when i saw tt handsome jiujiu ytd nite... haha... n he noe me ehh... but too bad i dunno him till i asked my daddy... he kept smiling at me n even tok to me.. then i was like... who r u ar?? but i did smile la.. hehe... he really not bad looking ehh!!! hehe....

having seen n noeing so many aunites n uncles, n after they knew tt i'm 20, most of them or rather everyone would ask.."u 20 le ar??? cannot see ehh!!! i tot u only 16 leh!!!" nvm... following tt, they would ask,"so u hav bf le ma?? when can i drink ur tea??? i like to giv hongbaos ehh... no bf ar??? y??? nvm... i intro to u some guys..." wow... really hor.... no comments.... hai...

today's blog v long hor??? ya... as i hav said mnay thoughts le ma.... hehe... k la... dun write le....

hav to study liao... last chpt... HPLC... after this, then i can go n revise my AIA le... haha.... hope i can do it ba....

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