"even though i am missing him..muz learn to refrain .. give us some space to breath...haha..esp at this period of time..exam exam..and ...see...whether will he call me or sms me first anot..hehe.."

haha.... someone gg to find this familiar.... but then... let me used to remind myself too ok??? haha..... i think i really need someone to knock some sense into me ehh!!! aiyo.... suan le... i wan to study liao.... today must study ppc ship part ehh!!! then tml AIA throu out le!!!

no more time ehh... at nite still hav to go to great grand auntie funeral... oh.... she died on tue nite... then ytd was the first day of funeral... hai.. gg to be busy le... cos a lot of procedures... n my whole family were involved....

so my dear tan bin........ go study ba!!!! if not u really no time le!!!

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hmm.... these few days... stayed at home.... trying my best to conc on my studies.... but i failed... thanks to someone!!! i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan!!!!!

now i hav to keep telling myself.... study study study!!! yes woman!!! study... u can do it de!!!!!! ok????? 3 papers only ehh!!!! STUDY!!!!! last 3 le.... after these 3 papers... no more le!!!

the rest can wait.... jus conc... pls dun let history repeat.... dun slack le.... kkkkkkkkk??????



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hmmm... ytd was the last 4 day tt i would be gg to sch liao.... n ytd also cleared 2 modules liao... so now i left 3 exam module...

wow.. ytd... really v tired ehh... stomache since sun nite till after all my test.... maybe sc was rite la... too stress le ba... then during the EIC... headache liao... wow.. really dun like those feelings ehh...

finally everything was finished... left 3 more modules...

ytd after EIC... went to east coast... hehe... i had fun... the feeling of relax was really v shuang... by the time i reached home... wow... i really went straight to bed ehh... haha....

tml maybe we r gg out again.... think so ba... dunno yet... not confirm... maybe tml is the last day tt we can go out n hav fun le ba... the v next time sld be on 15th April le ba.... hai...

my facew gg to be ugly for 3 more wks liao... everyday slp late, wake up early already made my face v jialat le ehh... now i hav to bear with it for another 3 more wks.... hai.... sad sad ar...

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jus uploaded some photos for my farewell party... hehe.... so u all guys enjoy ba.... hehe.... ====> ***click here***

* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 4:14 PM

jus now.... wanted to slp de.... today really a v tired day for me... i dunno y i so tired... but i jus feel tired.... hai.... then wanted to slp... but then... end up cannot slp... i kept thinking bout the last day of sch, wat will happen???

hai... 3 yrs le ehh..... a day where we yr 2 hoping to come??? now the day hav come.... but eveyrone is like bu she de liao.... hmm... i guess tt's human ba....

3 yrs... met not many ppl... but also noe not few ppl.... at diff level, hav made diff gd friends.... learnt diff things from them... thinking back.... many ppl hav changed.... including me ba... hai.... mixed feeling again.... qi shi wo le... dunno how to say them out... suan le..... next time... i use pen to write out first then i type in.... haha....

k la.. tml is gd friday.... tml then blog ba.... oh... i hav upload some pic le... not all la... wait till i upload all le, then i post the add up k?? meanwhile if u all interested, go to the "other" album... anyway i hav more to come too.... hehe....

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Hmmm…. Today was a v long day for me…. Woke up early in the morning…. Then met yc, dingjun n deming to go to Jln Kayu to eat our lunch… We had roti prata!! Hehe… we ordered banana prata n paper prata… then mutton brisyani, fish n chicken… erm.. is nice la… but v full… the banana pratra not bad ehh… one day u all can go n try… too bad xw was not there.. tt piggy cannot wake up… hai…

After tt, we went back to sch for our farewell party… the shows were nice… first is the lion dance… erm… I sld say this is the lamest lion dance tt I hav ever seen… haha… but there is one spirit tt we all sld learn… cos there is one person inside the lion head fell down from the stairs, but he stand up again n cont the performance… not bad rite??? Hehe….

After tt is our IC performance by claudin, nila they all… hmm… made me remind of my sec sch dance ehh!! Haha…. Next is the food performance by clara n benny gp… they sang the season in the sun, guang huan fang shi n graduation… not bad ehh… esp the graduation… they changed the lyrics… overall all the performance were not bad la….

After all the performace, is photo taking session time!!! Wow… everyone was busy taking photography… I took until I was really v tired ehh… basically we were all standing lor… aiyo… I wanted to sit but no one wan to move to the stairs…. Hai…

today had a tok with dingjun.... hmm... a lot of mixed feeling... maybe he was rite... i nv really hav deep thinking bout it ehh... but sld i really go n think bout it?? afterall.... is like... wat impt is now le lor... no use go n think back again isit???

jus now was toking to someone... wow... v tiring ehh... nearly bei qi shi le... idiot... suan le... no use angry.....

K la…v tired le… blog tml ba…..

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hmmm.... ytd was jus commenting on my future.... today... really make me wonder n think hard wat is really my future like.... wat's gg on with me this sem??? how come this last sem, everything gone wrong??? i really dunno wat happened le.... i really dunno wat future stands for me!!! exams r coming... isit this really a last sem for me??? tml is the farewell party... is tt the first n last farewell party for me??? i dunno.... i really dunno......

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hai... wat is future ar??? to say the truth ar... rite now, i am really v scared of this word... no matter is regarding to wat thing... i really v scared... today had a tok with my EIC teacher bout my journal... well, i think teacher now has somehow an impression of me ba... haha.... but then, while i was gg throu the details of my journal, i began to wonder... will history repeat itself again?? ya... they may be 2 diff people... but then.... i dunno leh..i dun wan thigns to repeat again.. to say the truth ar... even when it repeated, i really dunno how to handle it again.. i really dun wish to go throu tt process again... is v tiring... n somemore... in future, do i hav tt time for me to go throu tt again??? sch n work r totally a diff situation.. sch can allow me to slow down my pace, allow me to vent my frustration for awhile... but work cannot... i dun wan i dun wan... if really things not gg my way, i rather i give up now... hai... y there is no way for me to find out my future??? future to me... i really dunno is a gd thing or bad thing....

y??? y do u always wan me to go n face her when u noe i dun like her??? y u always wan me to go n tok to her when u noe i dun wan to tok to her??? u noe i dun like her... u noe i dun even wish to see her face... but then, u not only wan me to call her, but also go there n face n see her!!! see her so tt she can lecture me again isit??? so tt she can say watever she wan again isit??? come on la.. i'm no longer small kid ehh!!! who dunno the way she speak is v sarcastic ??? who dunno the way she tok always dun care bout others feeling??? does she ever stand in my shoes n think for me??? does she care how i feel?? y?? y i am the only one tt hav to face n listen to her music but not others??? how come u jus dun understand??? how come everyone is thinking she is so great??? can she jus get out of my life???

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aiyo... now blogger hav problem isit?? how come i hva difficulty in publishing?? hai... anyway... today i v sian... wanted to study for AIA quiz de... but really no mood to touch ehh!!! hai... spent the whole day eating... really ehh... i hav been eating non stop since noon till now leh!!! shit man!!! this time really grow fat liao!!! dunno how come my mouth so itchy ehh!!! aiyo... tonight cannot eat liao... aiyo... too fat then ltr no one wan me liao... haha.... no la... but i think i really need serious excerising liao... hai...

My poor fridge is in "ICA" hope it will recover soon ba... cos the noise is really v scary ehh!!! aiyo.... as if it is gg to die anytime like tt... aiyo....

ytd... went n watch the movie... "Son of the Mask"... erm... v funny... tt baby really v cute!! he really v chubby leh.... eyes big big... cheeks chubby chubby de... v ke ai lor.. then the daddy also v funny la... haha... overall the show not bad la... u all guys can go n take a look... after tt, came back home.. rest a while.. at night went to ah yi's shop n help... wow... tt place really v busy ehh.. i did helped out.. maybe not used to it ba.. then i got a biy blur blur... head ar... turned here n there... even rest, also rest a little while.. soon many ppl zoom to the place n place their orders liao... some ar... dunno to say they lihai or wat.. cos those auntie v busy.. then they saw me behind n they came to me n place their order!! hey is wrong lor!!! aiyo... make me more blur only... hai... but ok la.. is still managable... suddenly i feel like helping out ehh!!! hmm... must think thrice first ba!!!

these few days.. i hav been driving my family home from dinner... ytd... i think is the most funniest driving exerpience tt i hav ever had after since i gotten my license... aiyo... i dun wan to write.. write out is not tt funny as i said it out... u all guys call n ask me ba... or if we meet up, then i will tell u all ba... hehe...

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hmmm.... finally DT end le... today is the last quiz n tt's the end of this module liao... 1 down n 2 more to go... by next mon, 3 down n 3 more to go... hmmm.... not bad la.... i'll be having exam on 6 April n end at 15 April.... 3 paper n last for 2 wks... dunno is a gd thing or bad thing... hai...

next mon hav my AIA quiz... hai... rite now... i'm v v tired ehh... dunno y.. sick n tired of things liao... sick of sch... not sick of sch la... is sick of those quizes la... i really dare not think in future if i will to be in uni... more stress than now dunno by how many times lor... work??? dunno leh.. somehow i'm still not prepared... hai....

next wk.... thur is my last lecture.... last lecture in poly le... is conducted by Ship ehh!!! not bad ar... haha...

i jus realised... i hav to REDO my frag discussion ehh!! i saved wrong thing.... n the file tt i wan is lost!!!! i hav to redo everything... idiot... qi shi wo le... last min come n giv me this thing.. i tot i end everything le ehh!!!! hai... suan le la.. redo lor... no choice....

* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 11:32 PM

jus uploaded some photos... thanks clara.... hehe.... so u all guys enjoy ba.... hehe.... ====> ***click here***

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wow.... today 14 march... looks like many's ppl bday hor??? my cousin, jiayu n .... erm.. another i think many ppl bday's today... so Happy Birthday to all of u ba... hehe.... oh... today also the white V day ehh!!! hehe.. early in the morning, heard from 933 de... all the Djs like trying to emphasis on it ehh... haha...

anyway.. today not a v gd day for me... early in the morning, first lesson, already kena bad news liao... IC ppl, some of them failed their pqm... inclduing me la... hai... so sad ehh..... hai...

jus now only managed to finish trying notes for my DT... hai.. those polaizers n panels ar... so many parts... those lights ar... really can giv me headache ehh!!! aiyo... ltr gg to finish the discuss for frag... tml AIA datasheets.... hai.... then thur quiz... next mon... AIA... tt one ar... really can hang le... really dunno wat Ng is toking ehh!! even though he teach us 1 chpt... see properly hor... is 1 chpt ehh!!! 1 chpt can made us go haywire le... hai.... next mon also hav EIC roleplay.... gg to hav conflict with sharon liao... then next next mon, PQM again plus my EIC again... hai.... then EXAM le!!! *sob sob* v fast hor??? hai.... k la.. dun blog le la... too sad le.... hai....

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coded the following phrases from dear dear's blog which i find it meaningful la... it goes:

guess its the human nature..

*with mouths, we create words..
that tell of our thoughtsexpressing needs and feelings.
with hands, we write the same.
WHY fight and shout WHY cry and pout WHY sigh and suffer
WHEN you can be happy
BY forgiving yourself and others?

nice????

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hmmm.... ytd went back to sch to watch benny's concert... is a stage show la...from chinese dept de... anyway.. overall the show is nice... n a bit touching leh.... esp the part where they said tt the gd friend died during the riot... n the part where the lead actress gav up her ticket to her love n let him left first.... blur a not???

the story is bout.. back in shanghai, 1940++++, during the jap war, there is a lady..(forget the name liao.. so called her C la..) anyway.. she was a writer.. n she fell in alove with a guy who is working for the jap.. back in time, whoever work for the jap is considered to be a traitor... even though tt's bother her, but then the guy touched her by his sincerity and both of them were together... however, is not smooth sailing for the both of them... jap lost the war.. n tt guy has to find a remote place to hide.. so he left her alone in shanghai n went to other state to hide... tt gal, cos missed him too much, n went the other state to find him.. but end up, she found him with another village gal where tt gal is supposed to be his landlord... n so she left him......

however, sad thing does not end here... her gd friend, went on riot with her bf... though she did tried to stop her, but her gd friend insist on gg with her bf... end up, both the gd friend n her bf died during the riot... tt time, is really a depressing period for her... by then, shanghai is already a v dangerous place to stay on.. so A's admirer has bought 2 tickets and ask her to leave with him... but she refused cos she hoped tt guy tt she love would come back for her... n tt guy really came back... cos tt guy is still considered as a traitor, is v hard for him to buy a ticket n get out of the place... however, it is also a v dangerous place for him to cont staying there... so A decided to get hold of the ticket from her admirer n passed the ticket to tt guy... she herself cont to stayed in shanghai... but tt guy did promised her tt he would come back for her 10 yrs ltr... n true enough, he came back 10 yrs ltr la... n both of them lived happily ever after...

erm... the story is nice de la... but maybe after i said it, is not nice le la... hehe.. sorry.... but the show is really v nice... after the show, we waited for benny a while... but i think he too busy taking photos le... hehe... ppl is the 2nd coordinator ehh... hehe... but not bad la.. he did a gd job... after the show, cos is already too late le.. so everyone went home lor... on the way way home, dm did something tt really made me n yc laughed till piang!!! hehe... erm.. v hard to write down la.. come n ask me if u all wan... hehe.... k la... blog ltr ba....

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jus uploaded more photos... taken when i exchanged my hp w yc's hp... hehe... ya... taken my hp back le... hehe... anyway enjoy ====> ***click here***

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hmm... ytd was a v tiring day for me.... anyway, uploaded those pipc tt r taken on wed de... go n hav a look ba... hehe... enjoy ====> ***click here***

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hai.... today is the last prac in my last sem of my poly sch life.... well... quite emotional la... bo pian... is me ehh!!! i still remembered i wrote bout my last prac w my yr 1 friends... think is the polymer prac where everyone started to take out their camera n took photos!!! ya... today also the same... but not everyone brought la... only angel n yc brought... but yc took the most photos... we took a lot of crazy photos together... oh... but i think we forgotten to take a class photo in lab coat!!! hai.... but anyway... i think no one really hav the mood to go bother bout the last prac thingy ba.. cos tml we having e frag test... hai...

now.. i think we can start counting the last of everything ba... today lam jus told me,' is gd to see u now... cos like yr 1 i took over u.. now i took the last prac of urs...' ya... then he complaint i kept nagging at him... of cos nagged la.. who asked u to nag more than me??? haha... then cos today xiao jia hav her Dist presentation.. then she wore formal ma.. n make up... then he turned to me n ask me,' when will u make up for me to see ar?? graduation day tt day must make up ehh...' aiyo... tt lam ar... no comment la... hehe.... every sem saw him... see him now is really like my old friend le... hai.... today tt 'byebye' really said until a bit bu she de lor... hai...

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hmmm.... today... not a bad start... nv really feel sleepy at all throughout the whole day.. is tt a gd sign??? haha... dunno la...

anyway.. today something happen to IC... erm.. not the whole of IC la.. only affect 27 n 28 only... cos of our class chalet... there is one person on 27... either he purposely dun wan to bk or dunno wat la.. anyway... resulted nila to be unhappy n quite angry bout it... afterall, she ahs spent so much effort asking, persuding ppl to go tt thing... but now is like gg to be gone... but luckily... we came up w some last min solutions.. first we need to claim back our money first before we do anything... after tt, maybe then we can decided wat we wan again ba... hai... tml sure hav "show" to watch liao... haha...

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haha.... jus now was trying to find out those colours out... now i noe where le!! hai...

anyway... today... wasn't really gd la... today like keep hearing mummy's complaints... but didn't really care much....

suddenly think i am v bad... jus now... i even said something out... maybe is not right... but then is been inside me v long le ba... i also dunno how come i will say it out... but then... anyway as wat i expected la... she is not happy to hear tt... even ah ma hav comment... but wat is there to comment?? u also noe tt's the truth... hai... maybe cos daddy is there ba... daddy nv said anything... so dunno is he agree a not.. watever... dun really care la... really pissed off le lor...

wanted to do AIA... but really v v lazy ehh... hai.... 3 more wks before the study wk.... hmm.... dunno is to happy or sad....

* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 10:53 PM

hmm.... my com is ready liao.... not not in the mood to use it for my reports la... ltr kena again i sure jialat!!! haha....

someone complain tt my blog v long.... v long meh???? hai....

ytd....... met jiejie.... ya... as usual... we tok.... n i said something almost choked her!! haha... sorry la... u reminded me something so... i jus said it out lor... hehe...

hmm... now cannot comment anything... must wait till tt thing happen le... then we can really change wat we dun like ba.. not change but at least the no of time is lesser... hehe...

EIC said tt.... if we cannot change a person, change ourselves... changing ourselves is much easier than changing others...

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i dun understand... does a byebye really so hard to say???? didn't tt word is meant for ppl to say when they r leaving??? how come so strange de?? nowadays ppl dun like to say byebye de isit??? wat if there is someone wan to find u but end up couldn't find jus cos u nv say tt u r leaving???

i dunno... i find it so.... werid...

however it really made me tink.... is tt wonderful dream trying to tell me tt it's the end??? wel.. afterall is a happy ending... as in, tt dream trying to tell me tt is a happy ending dream.... so is time for u to wake up le... u can stop dreaming le... is tt wat tt dream trying to tell me??? i dunno... blur blur de... v confusing...

today ada said tt i like giving attitude... ok... maybe i am lor... jus now.... maybe i did again... even someone sms me, but i like... really dun hav tt mood to msg a gd sms back lor... i dunno how... hai... this wk really mood swing ehh!! terrible mood swing ar!!! hope next wk is a better wk ba....

* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 3:49 PM

hmmm.... really miss my blog... so purposely stayed behind in sch jus to blog!! not bad ar??? hehe....

hmmm.... acutally hav a lot to write de.... many things to say.... many things to comment... many different types of feelings... too mixed up le ba...

ok.. let's tok bout today first... today... woke up 2.30am to study my quiz... last night really no mood plus too tired to touch anything le... strugggle to bout 10+, really cannot tahan le... so hav to wake up at 2.30 lor... ok la... as usual... slp n wake up.. slp n wake up again...

in btw... think is from the 5am to 5.30am... i had a dream... how come n i noe the time ar?? cos i woke up at 5 thanks to my clock... but i was really too tired to wake up, so end up i slept till 5.30 after my hp rang... the main pt is not this ehh!! i had a funny dream... a dream tt i dun wan it to happen... is not a scary dream, is not a horrible dream or watsoever... not a bad dream i must say... a dream tt i noe i will laugh about... but if really happen, i sure dunno how to handle... so... nono... i treasure the friendship of those 2 ppl ehh!! hehe... i tink everyone is curious bout wat my dream is hor??? hehe... sorry ar... cannot say... cannot be publish out.... if wan to noe, come n ask me urself la...

anyway... today, actually till now, i tink my head is spinning le... did went hm to take a nap but tt nap like not enough like tt... hai... after tt came back to sch again lor...test was ok la... i think... anyway is over le...

wan to thank 1 person... thank you for be there ytd... i tink without u, i really dun hav the mood to go study ba...

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jus came back from the prac... hmm... we also get rid of some.. or rather is most of the FYP stuff!!! those bottles of fragrances tt we preapred... hmmm... they r the so-called our hard work.. n we are throwing away our hard work!!! not bad ar?? actually no feeling leh!!! maybe cos my mood is not there ba!!! not really in a gd mood now i guess... tml is the fyp presentation but here i am gg to do frag datasheet... my "dear" step last min came n tell me to finish those qns n pass it to her by 6pm today!!! hai... watever la.. used to it le...

i also dunno wat can i write now... maybe ltr ba!!!

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hmmm..... ytd was v tired.... rehearse my fyp till really can slp ehh!!! hai.... then ytd... wasn't really v happy lor... plus tired... hmm... acutally it was nth la... wel.. maybe a little hurting.... but suan le... y sld i bother rite?? dun wan dun wan lor... but luckily, ytd someone called me n brighten up my day.. haha... u noe who u r!!! hehe... to say the truth ar.. ytd in the bus, really wanted to find someone to tok de.. but i really cant find anyone in the list n even if found, i find it so silly to say it out... hai... though silly, but i still can be unhappy bout it... stupid gal!!!!

today... met edwin along the way... hmm.. he saw me first in the bus while i am crossing the road... hehe.... but lucky la... cos i saw him, then i used him as an excuse to refuse a ride... hehe... rite now i dun wish to hav gossip or rumors bout me in sch... oh pls.... not another one!!!

jus now had our ppc presentation... hmm.. i really dozed off ehh!!! but when come to my gp, the moment yc tok, i kept laughing non stop le... think he trying to attract attention ba.. which is not a bad idea la... ya.. it did woke me up... haha... then plus tee guan there... another joker... no wonder they r in the same fyp!!! hav the same frequency.. even the way they present r bout the same!!! haha....

ltr gg to hav ppc prac, after tt, rehearsing my fyp AGAIN!!! hai... tough life huh??? anyway... tonight will not be staying quite late la... though tml is the presentation thing... but thur i hav another quiz...

ytd someone told me,"SP qns r dead de.. they are always the same format or the qns r about the same... so if u study for the quiz, u sure can pass de.. but if u nv study.. u sure kena not gd result..." ya.. is true... i think everyone noe bout this logic... but how many of u actually did something to it?? chim ma??? hehe... wish me luck for tml presentation ba!!!

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