hmmm... i think now blog got a bit of pro isit?? nvm.. as long as i can write can le... hope can publish.. hehe...

anyway... stopped where i hav stopped jus now... ya.. jus now FYP... as wat sharon said.. gd n bad... bad is.. 4th floor... the moment i go down.. i hav to climb up... n is really v tiring by the time i'm up there... n is so hot in the afternoon leh... but gd thing is... i can listen to music using loud speaker!! haha... really v shuang leh... somemore no one is there... i can sing, jump n do watever i wan.. haha... then can use net somemore... haha...

but ar... i hav to run 2 classrm la... cold de.. n rm temp de... then my nose r like.. numb liao... i totally cannot smell those fragrance in the rm temp de leh.. even they r v saturated!! can u imagine how jialat i am?? not only me la.. sharon also.. haha.. today when kwok came.. he said,"wow.. smell so nice.." i was like,"huh?? u can smell ar?? got smell ar??" shit man i tell u!! my poor nose!!! hai... by the time i finished my fyp today.. i like walking refreshener like tt... walking perfume lady.. from top to bottom is full of fragrance smell.. n is different type of fragrances somemore... hai... if u think u r smelly, come n find me... haha..... i, xiang xiang ge ge, sure can help u de!!! haha.... actually sld be bin ge ge.. but i think i can be the xiang xiang ge ge liao... haha...

tml we gg to do the same thing again.. hai... dunno sld be happy or wat.. haha... k la.. blog tml when i'm inside the media room ba...

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hmmm... guess where am i now?? T242 to do my expt... but tt is not my lab.. is a media room... but we are spraying the perfume here to see if the smell can last a not... hehe... but ar.. i doubt so leh... the rm temp one ar.. within 5 min, the smell gone liao... hai... not fun de....

today FYP... ok la... not too bad... today moe fun is the sense can type blog now, can listen to music using loud speaker... haha... not bad hor?? hehe... k la... blog tonight ba... oh... did i said tt sc's sister came to sch last wk?? to find her?? today we hav yc's sister... hehe.. ltr going to see if she pretty a not... haha...

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jus upload the pic during ytd's jack's place bday celebration.... go n take a look ba... hehe... they r nice... kah yong hav not send his.. i'll upload again when he send me... hehe....click here

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today........... dunno how to describe my feeling.... thanks to someone ar.... come n tell me tt he's sick... called n tok to him ar... his mind dunno at where... keep "huh?? huh?? huh??" idiot... spoil mood de leh... nvm.... mood spoil le... now need to find entertainment... haha..

but ar.. i really wonder leh... isit whoever tt r v close to me..... is sure v unlucky?? not whoever tt r ard me every now n then sure down on luck?? i dunno leh.... somehow.. i hav tt feeling leh... idiot la... how come i feel tt it is my fault like tt??? all thanks to tt person la... hai... cannot say much now.. if not ar... ltr something happened again ar... either i laughed till peng or i feel gulity again!!! hehe... but i think i'll laugh first ba.... hehe...

anyway.. today morning already not tt gd la... hai.. not enough slp ar... afternoon went to acc mummy to orchard rd to buy her D&D clothes... not bad la... went to tt daniel yen... their clothes not bad.. but end up we found one at ck tang... hehe... n another one at PS, veeko... if i'm not wrong... but ar... the rain today really came at the wrong time leh... hai...

oh... i saw chuen yi feng today at wisma... they are playing tt "quan ming chu dong" game... she looked so funny... haha... i think they r finding the cheapest shoes to most expensive shoes ba.. cos she kept looking at the floor... hehe...

k la... tml got FYP.... hope tml is a better day ba....


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H a P p Y 19th b I r T h D a Y j I e j I e!!

hehe... tml is jiejie's bday... n today korkor, kah yong n i celebrated with her... actually was quite pissed off with her cos of those sms de.. then... thanks to korkor... called her n settle everything... hehe... then met her at 4.30pm... but i was late... haha... kena scolded... then forget to call korkor to wake up too... haha... jus now so pai seh... everyone i remembered to call to wake up except him... hai.. fate ar kor!!! haha... we walked ard junction 8... wow... tt place changed a lot leh!! we took pic again... ever since 2 yrs back.... we like every 2 yrs will took 1 pic de leh... hehe... after tt.. went to hav sweetens...

it was bout 6+ before we came back to my hse... rest awhile.. waiting for the time to reach... then we tok tok until korkor called us... then went down to Jack's Place... met kah yong there... n we started our dinner... we had fun la.. cos the both of us quite long nv see kah yong le... or rather quite long nv tok to him le.. hehe... dinner was nice.. except tt korkor ordered snails!! Yes... SNAILS!! haf a dozen somemore!! then jiejie n i were like,"eee...." haha... but i think we 2 crazy la... we come n bet see who dun dare to eat... n we both ate tt disgusting snails!!! haha... i tell u... tt's shall be the first n last time i'm touching tt... the taste was disgusting!!! but korkor n ky seems to like it... eee.... haha... then cont our tok... until 9+ ba... the place suddenly filled with bday's song... tt shocked the whole table of us...korkor n i were like.. is tt ours?? cos we order a cake... (read my below blog for detailed!!) n ya... tt cake was ours... then tt lady jus carried the cake in front of her... jiejie was shocked!! haha... then we sang song... cut cake all those stuff... then we began to play tt usual game... but i more naughty la.. hehe... i "scrope" a little cake n wanting to put onto her face... n we 2 were like struggling.. haha... but i finally won le of cos... haha... then we cut a big piece for her!! but she not gd ar.. nv finished!! hehe... after tt... bout 9.30 ba.. she went home le.. cos she need to go clubbing with her friends... then kah yong, korkor n i went to the pool center n waited for weijian to come... n they played pool while i sat there n see them played la.. cos i dunno how.... hehe... then we tok lor...

i dunno leh... being with them... i had some "comfortable" feeling... a feeling tt i seldom hav... is like... they are like my family like tt... isit?? i dunno... maybe cos we are v close to each other ba.. esp weijian n korkor... i feel.... peace.... haha... dunno how to describe tt feeling ba... today with them... i saw a v close bond btw them... really v close... like... they already know each other for a lifetime time... ya.. they already know each other v long le la... but sometimes... even u noe for each other v long.. tt bond is not tt close lor... but i can strongly feel tt theirs really v v strong... really envy them leh!! really envy... but with them ar... i'll feel lonely de leh!! hehe... erm.. ok... tt's it... cannot write too much... haha... but i jus like tt feeling... a feeling tt i'll treasure ba... i dunno... somehow i think the relationship btw korkor n i n jiejie n i were closer ba... tt's how i feel lor...

today i learnt... ok la...actually noe tt v long ago.. understand wat it means... close friends... those v close de ar... 1 or 2 is enough le... enough to go out n find a place n sit down n tok tok... then tok ANYTHING under the world... wow.. tt feeling is really... super great!!! Really!! i love tt feeling leh!! where friends sit down n tok tok... i like v long nv like tt le leh... k la.. today supposed to be happy de... dun write too much... hehe...


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Free Yourself From Attachment

One of the biggest traps in life is to desire something so much that you become inextricably attached to it. This object of desire can be a person, or thing, an outcome or any sort of pleasurable feeling or validation. Your need to possess it is so strong that your emotional well-being suffers when you don't have it.
What happens when you're waiting for it? You're anxious, stressed, obsessed. What happens if you don't get it? You're miserable. What happens when you get it and then lose it? You're miserable!
Some people cannot find inner peace unless they "have" whatever it is they are attached to, and some people even feel the compulsion to pursue whatever they need no matter what they have to do, or who they have to hurt. Some even end up taking their own lives because they cannot imagine life without that person or thing.
The only cure for this kind of desirous attachment is to understand the nature of desire. What happens when you finally possess that person or thing? You quickly lose interest and begin to desire someone or something else, right? It's an endless cycle. Why do we routinely subject ourselves to so much anxiety and stress for a little fleeting happiness? We can only find lasting peace from the INSIDE-OUT, not from the OUTSIDE-IN. If we can understand this, we can avoid a lot of pain.
The only way to free yourself from the emotional and mental suffering is to release all desirous attachment. Then you can go about your business, take care of what you wish to, be with whomever you enjoy being with, and know that your entire life and reality does not depend on any one person, place or thing. All things are equal in the sense that the pain or joy that they can give you is purely relative. It all depends on your point of view, and your willingness to appreciate. This prevents us from placing any one person or thing on a pedestal.
Once you've achieved this, you'll be able to drastically reduce anxiety, fear, pain and suffering. It is not what is outside of you that will bring you joy - it is your being free of desirous attachment that will enable you to live with far more inner peace, calm, serenity, and the joy you deserve.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

get this from clara's blog... quite meaningful but i think is v hard to achieve this... ppl who can achieve, i think they really enlighten ba... i think they r those wisdom ppl ba... hehe.... ltr gg to celebrate jiejie's bday with korkor n kah yong... jus now korkor called me... he finally noe how to make me laugh, did things tt make me happy when i'm moody... haha... thanks ehh... though we like to argue n we still did jus now... hehe.... k la... blog tonight ba...


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not really v happy today... dunno y... jus feeling a bit sian n moody.... FYP was fine today... actually i sld say today we v slack... only did 2 beakers... hai.... most of the time... i was either at my lab, food lab or env lab....

but today i went to another lab with yc... went to the optomery lab... tt place quite fun la... after tt... went to find xl they all... other than xl.. ch, clara they all were quite frustrated bout their FYP... dun wish to disturb them so i left le... went to com lab... stayed there a while with yc n ding jun.. after tt went to their polymer lab n collect sample... tee guan sprink his ankle but refused to see doctor.. stupid guy... was so painful n could hardly walked but still refused to see doctor... hai.... when bout to go home... saw xl they all coming down... saw ch carrying all their bags... really v ke ai.... haha... they went to acc wy but i nv go... cos quite tired le.. so i went home... sorry ehh... after tt... went home.. sleep... v sian... no mood to do anything... hai... k la.. tml then blog ba.. hope tml my day will be v nice....


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first thing first..... NICOHLAS WONG DING XIN!!! u this idiot.... wow.. i really hav no comment on u leh!! i told u.. if i'm not gg to say u today... i'm not tan bin ar!!! u this wan ba dan!!! called my hp jus to scold me!! n scold until v shuang hor??? i nv say u back only, u scold until like no ppl business hor??? idiot man!!! from env lab to food lab.. then from food lab to polymer lab.. then from polymer lab to food lab n from food lab to env lab again!!! u noe how far is tt dist ma??? 20min of tok leh!!! nvm.... fine... i went to buy cake... n for ur info ar... is RAINING.. n u noe now AMK is under renovation?? some places toatlly NO shelter de lor!! nvm... then i went to bengawan solo... but the cake is like... a bit cannot make it lor... so i went to prima deli... then saw the cake there.. not bad lor... but jus tt the stupid engraving must be ar least 1kg then can engrave... but is too big lor.. nvm.. so hav to call korkor n asked him.. i'm v considerate de ok?? i will ask for opinion de lor!! so i called him... but he this idiot!! asked him for opinions, he come n quarrelled with me instead!!! quarrelled bout tt durain cake thingy... shit him man i tell u!! i nth wrong lor... until now i still think i not in the wrong lor... hai wo so pai seh in front of tt salegals... really pai seh leh... he down there keep fighting with me... then i bo pian hav to fight back... then cannot be too loud also... u noe how nan shou ma?? nvm... still asked me to go to jack's place to take a look somemore... nvm.. go there liao.. told him stopped tt fighting... but he ar.. still happily cont... then i was like.. i cannot fight back also cos tt place is too quiet for me to scold him watever i wan to do to him lor... so i ren!!! nvm... after bking the cake... after i get out of tt place... the moment i get out... i started scolding him le...actually not from tt moment la.. is the moment i stepped out of the prima deli.. we already started fighting le... from tt prima deli to jack's place... from jack's place to my hse.. we still hav not stopped yet!! Yes... we hav been quarrelling more than 1 hr!!! n by the time i reached my hse downstiars... i was already v giddy n my hands r numbs... thanks to u, my dear!!! idiot.... really hav high blood pressure ar!!! wow... i already v long nv quarrelled to someone like so hiong liao leh.. or rather... non of my friends is like him lor!!! i nv quarrelled to a friend of mine like this before lor!!! more than 1 hr leh... i still hav not plus ytd de leh!! hai... kor ar.... i think ar... u really tt one n only one guy in my life tt i will ever fight until like tt man!!! haha... is tt a gd thing or wat?? i dunno... since sec sch... we already loggerhead... whenever we see each other... sure fight.... think tt's the only way to keep our friendship isit?? or our brother n sister ship?? yes... my this korkor ar... he can be v nice to everyone in this world except his this mei mei here!!! hai... sad hor??? tt's him!! haha...

today not only fighting la... morning went back to company to do my FYP.. saw tt Dr Loh... at first happy de.. cos our scope is like nearer to our wish... but then ar... at the ltr part ar... when he trying to tell us wat to do ar... at first i can catch de... but come to ltr part of the story.. i really catch no ball lor... cos he tok like machine gun like... keep shooting n shooting... hai.... but lucky is sc understand la... hehe... really wonder wat am i gg to do in future?? hai...

after tt.. went back to sch again... had lunch with the same gp of ppl... after tt... went to food lab to find xl... acc her until she end her FYP.. now then i understand wat they doing... erm... how sld i say neh?? say the truth ar... really sian... wat i find the silliest thing is they hav to describe the fruits tt they bought... haha... a bit bo liao lor... hehe.... acc them bout 3+ almost to 4 le..then we went home liao... ya... tt gg hm part... in front already mentioned le.... hai...

today is really a.... how sld i describe today?? dunno la... but i was really pissed off with korkor lor... hehe... he also pissed off with me la... but we used to it le la... hahaha... sat... pls... really hope tt u dun spoil my day, my dear!!! please!!! haha....

tml.. gg back to sch... some of them not gg back le... but i still hav to la.. bo pian... now i need to write my log bk liao... hehe... tml need to find tt Ship leh... hai...


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hmmm... today.. early in the morning... met clara n ch to check out results... wow... i tell u ar... i was really scared man!! i scared if really not gd ar... i scare i cry in front of them leh... haha... somemore we reached sch so early leh.. hai.. along the way.. saw yc in the lab... tok to him a while... he ar.... hai... he n his stupid logic... idiot... dunno see wat chinese calendar... say wat today is a bad day for ox la.. see results must face south la.. n the time to check must be btw 11-1pm la... the most suitable time is 1-3am but tt time result not out yet ma... hai... he n his stupid nonsense... haha.... n guess wat?? Deming really did tt!! haha... but overall... ALL DCP students pass... which is a gd thing la... some of my friends also hav at least 2 dist... hehe... congrats!!! me ar.... hmmm... better than last sem... but really not i expected lor... hai....

today FYP... dun really hav tt mood to do.. jus hav tt thinking... jus quickly finish tt 75% thingy n can siam liao... hehe... n we did it!! by 2.45... we already finished le... then i went to find food lab n find xl... she also hav finished le... but she v gd lor... waited for clara.. acc them... hehe... so nice of her hor?? haha... nowadays ar.. i like to go to food lab leh... hehe... though is not my lab... totally out of my course modules... but i still like to go there cos i get to see my food friends... haha... i jus like their acc cos they always so happy n fun to be with... hehe...

then today... after finding xl they all... went out with yc... cos dun feel like going home... so we went out lor.. haha... though is raining... but we decided to go to west coast... haha.. crazy i noe... but end up ar... we tok n tok n tok.. end up at clementi again... haha... but the most funniest part is... hafway... we saw xw... i was so shocked to see him leh... cos i nv expected to see him... n when he left the sch.. he nv said anything to me also lor... suddenly saw him appeared in front of me... i was like... huh?? how come u r here?? haha... but i was really shocked!! hehe... then the 3 of us tok for awhile then we went off le...

came back home... tok to korkor... he ar... today afternoon we were also toking... we were like cont from where we stopped ba.. haha... anyway.. he jus told me tt my blog can be found at the yahoo website leh... i was... i tot mine is praivate?? hai.... think in future i got pro liao... hehe... one way to find out is to type... kongyee... u will see many blog there liao... at yahoo search la... hai... nvm... k la... tml not gg back to sch... company... i think will be v fast ba.. maybe... i dunno... see how lor...


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hmm... in about 2 more hours... is an impt time for all SP students ba... haha.... good luck everyone!!! hehe.... v scare ar... hai...

today... hmm.... sld say a v happy day for me?? dunno y also... i totally not sleepy AT ALL!! haha... i've became a crazy gal today... haha... in the morning... met yc... then went to library to print out my fyp thing.... but it came out to be useless.. hai... i wasted many papers on it.. i still over 100 pieces of papers leh!! hai... n guess wat?? i think the only thing tt really spoil my mood today is cos after printing... i forgotten to take my cashcard again!!! aiyo... this is the 2nd time le leh!! hai... so sad... but overall was ok to me leh... thanks to the bf.. i was not feeling hungry today.. but i kepy rushing ppl to eat lunch cos i wan to get out of tt lab... i really v cannot tahan there lor... hai...

then after lunch... called claudin... then we tok n tok n tok... saw ch along the way... went to his lab n find clara they all... this gp ar... really a crazy gp leh... guess wat they playing in the lab?? DI water!! cos they were quarrelling... then clara went n shoot water at ch n ch went to shoot her back... aiyo... really funny lor... clara ran in out the lab... aiyo... really ke ai... py n i really can piang ar!! hehe... but today they v lucky la... heard from clara tt first time went back so early.. bout 3+, they already gone le... not bad la.. really hav fun playing with them... hehe...

but i think the most happy thing is my FYP... haha... we finally FINISH wat we are expected to do... n now we are proceeding to another scope... which is the actual formulation... hehe... suddenly feel a bit "man zhu gan"... hehe... tml we would be finsih wat is left over... n after discussing with our super... think we can cont to proceed on le... haha... hope my wish come true ba!!! i really wish to create something out leh!! hehe... k la... i think ltr in the night i will blog ba... tonight sure after midnight then slp le lor... haha....

today really v happy.. so happy tt i can jump.. went to hug hz... haha... i really crazy...

oh.. jus wan to tell u... SHE "bie shuo dui bu qi".. really nice... hehehe....


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hmm.... right now... i'm v v tired now.. really tired... my head now is in pain n maybe a bit spinning ba... thanks to my fragrance... hai... 5 different types of perfume all mixed up together.. hai... from top to bottom.. my whole body is full of tt fragrance.. not only my body... everything inside my bag also kena... hai... jus now went to take my labcoat out to air.. took out almost everything out to air.. if not ar.. tml sure "xun si"... hehe.. the smell not bad... but then ar... i think i touch too much on them le.. esp cos i did the control... then while i did the shaking, they spill.. so end up.. a mixture of the frangrances came into my hands... wow.. i can tell u ar... at tt time ar.. my hands really cannot make it ar... i hav to keep washing my hands to diltue the smell... aiyo... tml ar... still got another time... hai... is not sian today leh... cos get to see many ppl n tok to many ppl... so not sian lor... jus tt hav to walk down n go n find them... a bit ma fan la.. but not sian... not boring... today is the smell tt i cannot tahan... hai... tml... xl they all not coming... xw gp too... clara... i dunno... tml got time then go find out lor... hehe... hai... do fyp in sch not bad... cos get to go into diff lab n find ppl to tok... hehe... ok la.. not bad la...

tml....... do the same thing again... wat i worried now is whether my samples are enough a not... hai... k la... tml then blog ba...


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hmmm... today... woke up not v late or early... hehe... early in the morning.. went to hav a run with ada... hehe.... but i think i not gd to her la... she supposed to run more rounds.. but cos i can't tahan le... then she has to stop... hehe... pai seh ar...

after tt... went to her hse... saw her bro... ytd is her bro 21st bday... happy birthday.... hehe... anyway he cannot see also la... but ar... he has many presents leh.... n ar.. some ar branded somemore!!! wow... not bad sia... hehe... envy leh!!

after gg her hse... went to find mummy... done a facial... haha... overall... today ok la... my day still not bad la... quite happy... ada n i tok a lot as usual... hehe... 5 dec meeting her n weijian to watch movie.. the shutter!! haha... quite look forward to it la... hehe... k la... tml... same la... FYP... hai... hope i can hav fun ba... hehe....


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hmm... i think ar... the most "xing fu" thing in my life... right now la... is to tok to my friends n hav them ard me... n live peacefully with my family... hahaha....

today... after meeting korkor... i met weijian... wow... this friend of mine... also quite long nv met him le... he ar... no change la... as usual... like to bully me... always like to hit me de... idiot... but we still hav fun la... tok n tok n tok... but he v bad... took my phone n call ppl... ppl tt he noe nvm... ppl tt he dunno, he also called... hai... waste my money... aiyo... but i today quite happy la.. can see korkor n weijian... hehe...

after tt... went to seletar... hmm.... v v v sian... super duper sian ar... so lonely there... hai... then ar.. my cousin today... ROM... then nv go.. then my auntie n uncle started asking me... but i really dunno how to ans them lor... hai... n pls lor... i dunno ROM got dinner de leh... i tot only between the closest family like sis, bro, parents only.. where got those uncles n aunties, cousins de?? hai.... then they not happy... hey pls lor... n guess wat?? i dun even now my another cousin alreadt ROM le leh... i today then noe leh... but cannot really blame me lor.. cos they nv announce... n after the ROM, they only hav a small dinner btw the 2 family... but not the whole family as in the TAN family like tt leh... hai... one so quiet de.. another one make until so.. grand... aiyo... rich ppl really do rich thing... hai...

come back.... sian a while.. but afetr tt a bit busy ar... toking to ada, smsing to yc n xw... haha... but ok la... hav fun toking to them too... tml gg to meet ada for a run... hope i can run... hehe... k la.. blog tml ba... monday..... quite looking forward to it la....


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hmm... jus now went to jack's place with korkor to bk a table for next sat... then after tt, we went to tok tok... wow... really v long face to face tok to him le leh... gd la... i like to tok... haha... esp if tt person v long time.... not long time nv tok.. is got tok but tok throu phone la... but tok to phone n face to face is diff la... sometimes face to face is a fun thing to do too... hehehe... but i jus love toking.. last night tok to xl... also fun... tok until 1+... hehe... wow.. i like v long nv tok to many ppl le leh... tok is tok la... but tt long enough lor... understand?? n v long nv meet ppl liao... hahaha... next sat meeting jiejie n korkor n kah yong... weijian maybe ba... then next next sun... is ada... haha... we 2 women sure gossip... then following wk.. sun... meeting lian, jac n gwen... haha... we this click ar.. really v v long nv meet le... after tt... sch reopen le... hai... gd thing or bad thing?? sld be gd thing ba... can see friends ma... hehe...

k la.. tonight gg to seletar... oh.. today my cousin's wedding not wedding la.. ROM.. but i nv go.. then jess hav to go... poor thing?? maybe ba.. cos v sian n i'm not ard to acc her... hahaha... then tonight betty's bday... so hav to go seletar.. wow.. today "shuang xi lin meng"... haha.. k la.. tonight then i blog ba...


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hmm.... normal day for me.. or rather... a sleeping day for me... haha...

morning.. woke up v early cos need to go back to the company... hai.. dun really like to go back cos v far... but i was wrong... today is a gd day to go back cos my super was there... haha... not cos i like him la.. is cos only he can tell us whether we are on the right track a not... hehe... ya.. we are on the right track but we somehow did the wrong thing.. not exactly need to redo.. but jus hav to cont adding from where we hav stopped... actually feling a bit regretted tt we didn't find him the past few days.. if we did, maybe some of the pro may be solved liao.. hai.. next mon, we shall hav more things to do.. but also more time to be waited... haha... but we hav solved some of our pro le la... which is a gd thing lor... but cos today is friday, n we hav said to rest on this day... so we jus brought back those chemicals bottles to sch, ate lunch with hz n lu.. then we went off le... actually was thinking whether to stay back longer to do the expt.. but was really too sian n sleepy to do tt la... hehe....

came back home... first thing i did is to sleep liao... haha... from 2+ to 5.30... jus in time for my show... haha... but haf way throu, saw xl n ada sms... hehehe... kind of miss xl leh...

hey dear... sometimes i really think we hav tt "xin ling xiang tong"... haha... ya... actually kind of miss u too la... but we are each busy with each of our stuff... maybe one day we can meet up n chat like wat we used to do ok?? hehe....

k la... jus finished reading 1 storybk... read until my backache liao... haha... forget to do my fyp work.. hai.. k la.. got to do liao... blog tml ba....


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feeling quite happy now... hehe... jus received a call from yc they all... can hear tt they are having fun there... eat play.. wonder they will gain weight a not?? hehe... hmm... hope i can join them too... but ok la.. when they come, i hav many stories to hear liao... esp from yc n xw... sure v fun de...

anyway... today same la... fyp.. but today we hav many ppl ard.. got hz, lu, claudin, mj, st they all.. not bad la... but tml we gg back to company.. but a while lor... maybe after tt, we will come back le lor... next mon then cont in sch ba... v sian de leh... hehehe...

this is for hz de... if she happened to read la..

hey woman... i noe u v sad... i noe u miss him a lot a lot.. i noe if u nv see him or heard his voice for 1 day, u will feel v v uneasy... but look at the bright side... 2 wks... maybe u can prepare a surprise for him for these 2 wks... meet ur sec friends, pri sch friends, poly friends... friends tt u hav not been seeing for ages... get this chance to get touch with each other lor... sometimes with friends acc, u will feel happy too... at night, call friends also la... tok until u slp lor... hehehe... dun worry la... u still hav us ok?? u will not feel lonely de la.... hehehe...


* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 10:19 PM

hai... today ar... fyp ar... one word to describe..."SIAN"!! wow... after doing tt.. or rather.. during the expt... feeling bored n sian.. plus tired.. cos not feeling v gd last night.. then v hard to slp.. then this morning... v hard to wake up.. lucky xw n yc sms me... if not ar... i sure lay on my bed until dunno wat time ar... hai...

today... xw, yc, alfred, dm n zy went to malacca today... xl, ch they all went to their class chalet at sentosa... wow.. suddenly ar... all gone liao... all at the same time somemore... aiyo... they having more fun than me hor?? hai... anyway... today in sch... many ppl also la.. though dm n yc went on holiday.. theiir gp members no holiday... they came back to sch n continued their fyp... so hardworking hor?? haha... actually is bo pian la.. no more time le ma.. but though mine fyp a bit sian ar.. other than stirring n adding... n our eyes maybe gg to become microscopy eyes liao... hai.. tt little oil droplet ar... v hard to see leh... must under the light, then turn here n there before we can add... aiyo... but compared wif other gp... we easier la.. cos other gps need to make sure theirs is sucessful or close to the ideal case... but mine got no ideal or success to compare one... hai... dunno is gd or bad... saw their samples... but to me, at least they hav something for them to be busy... n not slacking ba... at least dun hav to wait so long la...

today then i realised leh... no matter is attachment or fyp... i still cannot get rid of stirring, adding n waiting... attachment.. also like... fyp also like tt... n the waiting time ar.. is getting longer n longer... hai... dunno la... hope tml is a better day... haha...


* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 11:03 PM

hmm... jus now too sian liao.. finding someone to hear wat i need say... dunno y.. hav the urge to hear ppl how i feel, how i think... finally find korkor... hehe.. i tell u ar... he is sure the last person to find man!! unless no one i can really find, then i will find him de leh.. cos he ar... can say almost everytime ba.. when i'm too happy or excited ar.. he sure somehow will make me feel.... calm down?? or demolised me?? haha... nvm la..

anyway.. after toking to korkor... it made me feel something lor.. sld i feel lucky? lucky to meet n noe those ppl i am knowing now?? no one betray me... no one dislike me.. maybe got dislike.. but not to tt extend to hate... everyone is nice to me... no one is nasty to me...no one ever backstab me.. do they?? i dun really remember lor... i really dun remember there is anyone tt is v bad to me... though i noe n heard before tt the society is like tt... but i really nv ever met one before leh... sld i considered myself as lucky or i am still not fated to meet?? wat if i meet such person?? is like... now.. everyone of us is already 19... by now everyone sld hav met one or two of these kind, don't they?? maybe not tt bad, maybe nasty, betray u... n as wat korkor say.. if u will to meet another kind of these ppl ar.. u will noe how to handle lor.. but i dun leh!!! not only korkor told me before... edwin also mentioned to me before... how??? to say the truth ar.. i'm anxious n scared to meet these type of ppl leh... i noe there are many kind of ppl living in this world... but so far... i only met ppl tt r nice, irritating, boastful... not tt tt extend so bad ba... hai... how?? i also dunno how...

at first quite confused bout something de... but then ar... thanks to korkor ar... keep tt thing off my mind for a while... haha... but he said one thing bout me quite true la.. i'm still in my lala world... my princess world...how much longer can i still stay here?? sooner or ltr, i still need to leave my princess world... hai.... sound sad huh?? dunno la... maybe i sld enjoy now ba.. when come to leave already, then sad ba... tt time will come soon le ba... hehehe....


* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 10:57 PM

hmm... today... went back to sch for tt fyp... aiyo... v tiring leh.. also dunno y i so tired.. haha... but today... went back to sch.. saw quite a no of ppl la... saw ch, xw, hz, lu... they came back for the fyp too... haha... other than ch, we had lunch together... the 2 labs... cos v sian.. walked here and there n tok to each other... haha... when we were bout to end, ch came into our lab n find us... their class are having chalet today... but hor.. this afternoon raining... wonder how they spend their day there... hehe... but at night sld be v cooling ba.. hehe...

tml... yc n xw they all r gg to malacca... gd for them lor... i still hav fyp... hai... i'm gg to hav fyp throughout leh!! sian... next wed, we gg to get our result liao... v scare ar... hai... k la... tml then blog ba...



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hmmm... jus now... went to look at the nov n dec calendar... hope to find times for my friends n will not crush on my fyp de.. n plus i must hav the money to go out ma... hehehe... so now whoever wan to go out with me, must advance bking liao... haha... i already meeting ada, lian they all, korkor n jiejie... i think quite full le ba?? hehe... so whoever wan to meet me, must say faster ar.. dun last min hor!!! hehe....

oh... guess wat?? now then i realised tt acutally got ppl miss me leh... haha... so happy.. still can miss me until dreamt of me leh!!! haha... so touched!!! really gan dong leh... at least i noe got ppl think of me... haha....

friday... nth much la... went out with mummy... walked here n there... was drenched too.. cos of the sudden rain.. aiyo... but strong enough not to get sick la.. hehe...

sat.. went to ah ma's hse... haha... v tired i tell u.. 5+ been woken up by mummy liao... but sat.. i must say... is a sleeping day for me... haha... basically i slept the whole day... hehe... but at night... hai... been woken up again... tt night is really... erm... nvm...

anyway... sunday... came back home le... as usual la... sleep again.. must slp to replenish my energy ma... hehe... but sooner or ltr i will grow into pig liao... haha... today... went out again with mummy n ah ma.. with my cousin... went to IMM.. walked until my legs cannot tahan ar... aiyo... then after tt, came back home... sleep again...haha... bo pian.. tml onwards... no more liao... need to do fyp le... hai... dunno sld be happy or wat... nvm la...


* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 10:59 PM

hmmm... today is public holidays.. everyone must be enjoying ba?? hehe... anyway... wan to thanks u all guys' concern... i noe u all r concern bout me... dun worry la... i will walk throu it... all i need is time to adjust n get over it ba... sorry to ppl who feel offended by my previous blog.. i'm not scolding anyone of u all la... jus venting my frustration la... but ar... i think i own roy an explaination... hope i can see him soon n i wanted to see him... but then ar... i'm so scared to face him.. i dunno how to face him... hai...

today early in the morning, woken up by mummy to go seletar... ok.. u all noe me la... but then ar.. come to think of it ar... i think it's been MONTHS tt i hav not been leh... a bit bad lor... then today saw ah ma... when i called her, she is like so happy to see me.. saw her smiling face... it made me feel so happy but guilty at the same time... hai... if tt betty not in sing ar... maybe next time i'll go more often ba... hehe...

today... i also gav my room a new refresh look!! hehe... i changed all my furnitures positions... haha... all done by myself leh!! hehe... i changed every furniture wor!!! my bed, table, cupboard.. except my radio la.. hehe... so refreshing leh... but then ar.. i kept all my notes le... hope i dun hav to bring them down again... choy ar!!! hehe....

other than my rm, my mummy bought 2 more plants for the hse... hehe... at first say today wan to paint the hse de... but daddy say maybe ltr ba... so end up nv paint... but lucky nv la.. if paint ar... i think i need more than 1 day to clear my room... it took me 1 whole day to rearrange my rm leh!! haha... now i like my roomso much... though i dunno isit a gd position la... hehe... hope it will bring me luck ba... haha...

tml..... going to acc my mummy again... sat... maybe not in sing ba... dunno wat's my plan... k la.. blog when i free ba... hehe...


* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 10:17 PM

Wat am i gg to do now?? how come no one can understand how i feel?? how come u all dun understand de? u all think i wan isit?? i noe u nv blame me.. i noe u expected it.. i noe i spent too much money on it.. yes.. maybe i am a bit over confidence bout myself.. but u think i wan ar?? u think i wan to fail ar?? u think i wan retest ar?? yes.. retest only ma... but the tone u all giv me as if i wan to fail like tt.. as if i like it like tt... yes i noe is my fault.. i noe u all v sad... but who is sadder?? who is the one taking the test now?? who is failing now?? whose dreams is gone?? whose wish is gone?? whose expectation is gone?? y u all dun understand de?? u wan me to stand at ur shoes n think... then who think of mine?? u noe this blow is how big to me ma?? is not like failing english so simple leh... i am sad... but i cannot show it too obvious.. i wanted to quarrel.. but i tried not to... hav anyone think of my feeling?? u all really think i wan to retest?? i really feel like giving up.. but i noe i can't... i hav to continue... but where is the ppl i need concern from go to?? where r the true words??? i noe i must.... buck up.. cannot keep thinkning bout the failure... i must not be so sad... i noe... n i'm trying... retest only ma... is easy for u all to say tt leh... i noe i hav attitude pro after my test... but u understand ma?? u dun understand y ma?? u noe wat i wan ma?? i need wind... i need air... i need someone to noe how i feel... how i really feel.............




* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 10:44 PM

hmmm.... i think i dun hav to write, i think everyone noe wat happened to me le ba?? ya... indeed v v v sad now... v v heartbroken now... to say the truth... nth can console me ba.. i noe wat u all r trying to say... i noe wat u all mean... but whether i can accept it is another thing... hai... really in a foul mood now... but anyway... i still need to thank u all guys for ur concern... esp korkor, jiejie, xw n YC for acc me... is been hard on the 4 of u... hai... right now... i also dunno wat interest me le... aiya.. let me be a few more days ba.. hope i can get over it soon...


* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 11:04 PM

hmm... today... v tired... also dunno y... went to driving lesson in the morning... today saw the instructor tt i fixed... erm.. he not bad... but he v quiet.. he dunno tt i fixed him until the end of the lesson.. haha... hai... i v scared leh... hope i can pass ba... hehe...

came back home... after lunch.. went to watch a bit of the tv n went to slp.... i slept quite long today leh... hehe.. so when i woke up, i was v energetic liao.. haha... i really need to slp a lot leh.. tp bring my nice face back... haha...

tml shall be an v IMPORTANT day for me... a day which i waited v v long... a day which i always dream of... hope tml is the best day tt i hav... haha... pls... rain... dun come... pls dun spoil everything... if really need to rain.. rain in the morning ba... hehe...

k la... tml blog...shall depend on my mood ba... hehe....

if worry for me, u can call n ask me de... if u noe wat happen to me la...


* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 10:19 PM

hmm... last nite... slept v late, then hav to wake up idiot for tt driving... hai... but cos wan to let him see the best of me... i force myself to go bath to wake myself up!! haha... so i went to see Roy the last time... hai... happy n sad.... so mixed feeling... hai... but then ar... i really v tired to smile la... but tt was at first la.. after tt ok le la... hehe... but today ar... he like so worry... joke so less... hai.. but cannot blame also la.. tml n mon he will not be teaching me... so he need to brush up watever he can... but he's too quiet le... not fun... but he did told me a lame joke la... v lame one...

i asked him," do u hav car??" he say ,"no...." but suddenly he say,"yes.." but pointing to his leg... at first, i tot he is referring tt his car is his leg... but then ar... he was also pointing to my leg n say.."u also hav "car" wat.."... then i was like... do u all understand wat i am toking?? the "car" tt he is referring to.. yes is my leg but in hokkien... leg is called "car" rite?? stand??? hehe.. v lame i noe... when i heard it, i was like.. therr... pls lor... aiyo... but today, the lesson was a bit sian lor... ok la.. a bit fun too la... hehe... oh... today he called one guy, his trainee named samuel... to b uy bread for him.. cos he too hungry liao.. haha... oh... i has his hp no!! haha... he gav me de... hehe... he wan me to call him after my test... but i think i'll depend on my mood ba... hehe...

after driving... went out with ah ma... go si ma lu to pray... after tt, meet jiejie... n we went to my auntie's shop... eat drink tok... after tt, went to seiyu n walked walked... wow.. v long nv go out with jiejie le... haha... after tt, went to meet mummy n go geylang to pray si mian fu.... hehe... but after tt, went back to bugis again... mummy wan to buy things... hai... walked until my legs cannot tahan le... aiyo... by the time i reached home, i was really v v tired le... but after bath.. was ok le la... so now online was offline soon la.. cos tml still got driving... hehe....

k la... tml then blog la.. tml will be a new instructor tt i fixed.. roy asked me to fixed de.. think he will be ok ba... hehe... hopefully ba...


* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 11:32 PM

hmmm.... jus change come colour of the blog.. i am really trying le.. hehe...

today... sleep until v shuang.. but maybe used to wake up early le... so today woke up quite early leh... but ok la... during the afternoon, i took a nap... v tiring ar...

i remembered last 1 or 2 mths, when i cannot use com at home, i miss my blog... really miss.. like everyday also hav something to write... but now ar... nth... haha.... maybe last 2 to 3 wks... is study wk n exam wk... so maybe got thigns to complain ba... n maybe i'm outside with xw n YC... quite a lot of things happened ba... anyway... is fun to be with them la...

but then... ytd hor... when we went to suntec rite... when we are at the city link, wat is in my mind ar..... my yr 1 friends... haha... really leh... from city link to suntec to singapore river... tt place is like our frequete place tt we always go to... kind of miss them leh... a total of 2 wks nv saw them leh.. dunno when i can see them also... hai... but ytd... i really hav fun at the river... hehe... we walked a lot leh... crossed many roads... there got 7 brigdes rite?? think we went to 3 or 4 there le... hehe... lihai ba?? hehe... tml after driving... gg to temple to pray for my driving.... haha.... k la... i stopped here la... tml then blog... oh.... tml can see roy!!! hahaha.... so happy... last time see him le leh!!! hai.... so sad... tml must tok to him more... hehe....


* my T E A R S stopped F L O W I N G_ 1:04 AM

hmmm... is already been 2 wks tt i nv blogged le hor??? miss me rite??? i noe la... hehe.... n guess wat?? i'm using my hse com le wor!! haha... so happy.... ok... first before i begin my blog... i must say ar... 2 wks leh.... v long de hor... so bear with it la... hehe...

first... hey ppl from braddell de... how come no one tell me if u all wan tt braddell blog a not?? wan me to start first then u all start to write isit?? at least tell me if u all wan tt idea a not ma... aiyo...

anyway... these 2 wks is my exam period...these 2 wks... always went out to study... surprise a not?? fot those who noe me well noe tt i cannot study outside de.. but ar... these 2 wks... i'm always outside with xw n YC... nv really memorise but manage to finish writing all my notes w/o any tv or com disprution... haha... but got radio la.. YC used his phone for the radio... ok la.. study with them... not bad la... but dunno y... can say everytime i study with them... the sky sure rain... gd la.. not hot ma.. then study better... hehe....

summary of all my exam... i must say tt i hav been cheated by 4 lecturers... really been cheated leh... ICP n micro E... aiyo... on the first paper is a night paper... was too angry with tt cheng le... say no C4 product... end up 5mrks of C4 product... idiot... then nvm... i xin xin ku ku memorise those eqn... cos of the air con.. i sneeze until all my eqn mixed up!! wao kao!! after sneezing ar... it gav me gastric... n is really v pain lor... took bus home, hafway throu... daddy came n fetch me back instead... hai... miroc E... also the same thing... been cheated liao... i studied all the tables leh.. memorsie all the tables leh... except 2 tables which i forgotten to flip throu in the morning... it came out tt 2 particular tables leh... n the rest nv come out at all lor!! qi shi wo le!!! tt 2 tables made everyone no mood to study... including me... at first say wan to go out n study de... but end up no mood liao... hai... pcc... cos v scare been cheated again... so nv care wat particular qns, jus read everything... actually pcc must thank YC for his spotting of qns... cos he spoted 2 qns tt cost 15 mrks each... haha... lihai ba?? not bad hor?? tt paper was ok...

come to the last paper... maybe cos last paper... ytd morning nv bother so much until in the afternoon... then really started to study... i memorise the whole thing leh... this time more lihai is tt i can say out the whole thing from my mouth... but ar... today ar... during exam... i kena black out!! totally blank mind!!! all those i memorise until v mei mei le hor.. all disappeared le... i was so scared leh!! when i told lam tt i hav a blank mind, i almost break down le leh... i jus stared into the exam paper but nth came out.. got some wrods inside my mind but is all mixed up de... hai.. the suitation was even worse when it was raining v heavily outside... after exam.. i ren... cos i dun wan to break down in front of so many ppl... so i managed to hide a bit.. but xw, sc n YC saw le la.. hai... cos of the heavy rain, my sentosa trip was cancelled... hai... so sad... really sad leh... but after tt, we went to hav dinner at suntec... got lu, alfred, de ming, YC, xw , sc n me.. after dinner, sent lu, alfred n lu to the bus stop.. cos they wan to go AMK to dry swim... wow.. i tell u ar.. we waited for tt 162 for 40min leh!! waited until we so frustrated leh!!! really v long lor!!! aiyo... after sending them, saw step they all eating too... n they v ke ai... tt step ar... she is like being asked to come n asked me if xw n i r together a not?? wow.. i was like... huh?? do we look like one?? haha...

anyway, after tt, YC, sc n i went to the esplanda... sat at the merlion there n tok n tok... the wind v shuang... see the wave.. wow... then we walked the whole of singapore river... walked n tok at the same time... wind blew our face.. so liang... so shuang... hehehe... oh... we also saw tt exciting game tt cost $30 oer person... u all noe wat is tt ma?? tt thing tt throw u up into the sky?? ya... tt one really v exciting... we saw someone played tt... n being threw up into the sky.. we were like..."oh my god!!" haha... but we walked v far leh... hehe... not bad la.. quite fun la... tok n tok n tok... hehe...

but hor... thanks to my exam... my face was ruin... so many pimples came out!! aiyo... everyday... really everyday leh.. woke up at 7am... if not exam la... if exam in the morning, 5am woke up liao... then ar.. slept at 12plus 1 plus like tt.... hai.... end up... my face is full of pimples.. the shape is so down... not nice liao... haha.... so now... i must slp more!! or else ar.. i really need to go for facial le... hehe....

k la... v long le la... i also v tired le... i blog tml ba... hehe....


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